Hello to all and how is everyone? I have to say I am slowly recovering from a massive sinus /ear infection that has given me a right fit for the last few days. Right after we had that last huge rain come through my area I woke up to badly inflamed sinuses that went straight to my left ear which is prone to getting fluid build up and inflammation. I had chronic infections in the left side when I was a kid. The last five days I have either been asleep or barraging my sinuses and throat with various home remedies such as salt water, Echinacea tea, Eucalyptus leaf with honey and lemon tea, migraine medicine, and chicken noodle soup and various water based clear liquids, to get my head to clear. I feel ok so long as my head is cleared out and I can get the disgusting amounts of crud to come loose, yeah I know that is gross but if I don't get it to come clean out of my head and throat I will just be worse off and end up possibly going to the Dr. for tests and stronger medicines and I hate Dr. offices or hospitals where they stick you with needles, poke around and prod you and ask annoying questions and run 10 kinds of tests and make you take medicine that is artificially made. Why do all of that when I can just heal myself and do exactly what they would do and more naturally?
Yesterday finally I could breathe and the fluid in my ear is going down, but my left tonsil is still infected. Somehow I still have the energy, or just plain stubborn willfulness, to make myself take the 15 minute walk to the store, the nice autumn air feels good after being shut in for days, and then I came home yesterday from my brief outing I managed to clean the house and bomb my bedroom with a small cleansing ritual, which is where I have spent most of my time sick, I even stripped the bed and washed everything. Then I went straight through the house with the industrial strength antiseptic cleaner and whole house is getting blasted with a ritual cleansing to make sure the gross feeling negative energy is gone when I feel I have enough serious energy to do it right.. You can't really do magic or rituals when you are sick because your energy and defenses aren't up to par and it will not work out like you intend for it to.
I find it odd I was perfectly fine last Thursday, and then Friday morning came and after that I was 10 kinds of miserable and unable to do anything but make myself take medicine, slurp down a bit of scalding hot soup and liquids, and pass out cold asleep. My son is not sick either and at some point over the weekend I hazily remember taking a shower and today I really worked on the skin scrubbing because I felt like I had grime glued to my skin and hair. I am not the person that just suddenly comes down sick out of the blue sky either and I noticed when I woke up on the third day enough to notice anything normally that my house has a strange smell to it like it has been shut up and neglected too long and every room of the house feels contaminated with some unseen residue like someone or something took buckets of slimy crud and plastered the walls and everything with it. Imagine a huge slug crawling and leaving its slime trail everywhere that is the impression I got when I woke up this morning. The slimy gross vibe on me and in my house has to go and when I have enough viable energy to devote to a strong cleansing the negative vibe is going to be dynamited away.
I will update again soon, the New Moon is coming on Thursday, it is a partial solar eclipse and I really hope something good happens in the next couple days!! Bright Blessings to Everyone and I shall return!!
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Sunday 10-12- 2014 Nightmares or Personal Haunting? Please read, share, and comment!
So did anyone see the eclipse we had recently ? I missed it, much to my annoyance it has done nothing but rain here for days and that morning it was clouded over and I couldn't see anything. Today I got drenched walking to the store,and walking into the store looking like a drowned cat is seriously not my thing!! I have not done any spell work or anything recently, I really haven't felt up to it, my energy just feels low and I also have ridiculous amounts of other errands to keep track of and I get something done and still have 20 other things to finish, so can we say frazzled?! I am also stressing about the lack of spare finances at the moment, every half a penny I have is going to bills that I almost can't pay and nothing else and I feel very strapped. Goddess and God could bless me with some full time work and I would be very grateful right now!
Anyways, onto witchy matters, Samhain is coming and the veil is thinning, how many of us have had increased instances of enhanced sensitive awareness via dreams, scrying, divinatory practices, and spiritual or "paranormal" activity? Here we have had some lightning storms and that is known to stir up energy that spirits, ghosts, and other entities can use to manifest their presence into the living side of the veil. Myself being a Highly Sensitive Person, I have noticed a strong change in the spiritual atmosphere here at home and other places I have been, I always get that scalp tingling sensation and all of my internal sensors perk up when I know something or someone is roaming around. As we approach Samhain, the veil is going to become wide open and we will see, feel, and experience all types of things that go bump in the dark! One of my personal Samhain observances is that I make a point to set up my scrying and divination tools, set up a small altar made specifically to honor and invite spirits into my space, a ritual offering is usually set up on a side table and somewhere in the room I set up a voice recorder. This is the best night in all the world to do paranormal investigating!! I am a huge fan of the "Ghost Hunters" show. Conducting my own experiences with the paranormal is a side hobby of mine and every year on Halloween I do some kind of ritual work and do a bit of paranormal investigating. To date I have not actually captured any voices on the recorder but I have heard noises and other forms of contact and have had the experience of strong awareness of spirits in my immediate space, I have been touched and I have seen a few things that were definitely not my imagination! Woe is me I do not own a good video recorder yet!! You're about to find out why I need one in a minute....
However this year is going to be different, I am taking my son out with some friends to a few neighborhoods for candy and a bit of fun, and I am going to leave the ritual table and scrying tools set up and the sound recorder running while I am gone until I get home, I am very curious to see if anything happens while I am gone for a few hours. I might strategically set up one of my phones to act as a video recorder to see if that will get me anything. Why am I doing this you ask? Well I have had this issue going on with my son who is 12, as of May 2014, he has abandoned his bedroom entirely claiming up and down with vehement unwavering conviction that there is someone or something in his bedroom at night while he is trying to sleep, and according to him, only person can see or hear it is him. Trying to get him to conquer his near paralyzing anxiety and fear of sleeping in his own bed again is near impossible, and all attempts of mine to get him to sleep in there results in screaming, crying, and complete emotional meltdowns from him and I have tried everything I know to get him over it. I have tried blessing and cleansing the room twice, cleaning every surface ceiling to floor, rearranging the furniture, and everything I can think of, he still refuses point blank to sleep in there.
I hesitate to involve any other outside sources of help at the moment, firstly my "family" is of no help or support, the first thing I was accused of was "conjuring something" in my house and I got this evil eyed glare and finger pointing so the guilt and blame was centered on me as if I somehow have something to do with it, this really did not help considering my son was listening to the whole conversation I was having with them at the time and of course he was then inclined to believe them over me, and looking at me with doubt, suspicion and skepticism that anything that I was going to do and the fact I am a witch was not going to help him and yes that really hurt my feelings. Oh sure try and destroy and belittle my own child's faith in me to protect him. Let me say now for the record that I really and truly despise and detest Baptists and all forms of so called high and mighty "Christian" faith, or at least those that want to sit there and slander, berate and demonize their own family and make problems ten times worse than what it should be. There are probably great people that are of Christian faith but to this day I have not met one at least where I live anyways. The "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" mentality is alive and well here. I really don't want the local clergy of any kind involved and there isn't many people I know that shares my of spiritual practice or beliefs that I can ask right this minute to help me out. Now the only thing I know to do is set up the recorders and other things, and start investigating a bit to see what, if anything, is really going on. I am reserving a final judgment and opinion on the whole matter until I see or experience proof with my own 6 senses that what my child is possibly experiencing is really and truly bona fide there and not just a wild conjuration of a overactive imagination and somehow he has scared himself silly. I can actually say for a 100% fact that hat he is experiencing is truth or not yet, so I am maintaining a bit of healthy practical common sense and grounded realistic views of this right now.
The supposed person, entity, ghost, spirit, or what or whomever is bothering him, apparently stands next to his bed, breathes audibly, shuffles around the room, moves the bedcovers, and lurks in the doorway. I personally feel and sense nothing in the room when I go in there either during the day or nighttime for anything. However my poor kid is utterly convinced there is something in there that is going to get him if he so much as goes near his bed at night. He claims if I enter the room "it" leaves, and when I leave the room it comes back in, there has yet to be a form or shape described of what this thing or person may be, just the overwhelming sense that there is something there with him and it seriously unnerves him and terrifies him to the point of where he will sit hunkered in the floor and bawl his eyes out at the idea of having to sleep in there. We did not ever have this problem up until May 2014. He started coming into my room crying and very upset claiming that something was in there, this isn't something he has ever done while we have lived here. The only other time he has done something like this was when he was two years old and we had just moved into a new house and he had horrible screaming nightmares that he couldn't describe because he couldn't talk well then and eventually it subsided and disappeared. But for the 3 1/2 years we have lived here in our apartment he has slept in his bed, gone to bed on time and slept through the night, no problems whatsoever up until May. I am not yet sure if he has had a very upsetting nightmare, or something has actually happened in there to scare the wits out of him and he refuses to confront this or have any self power over it himself to help himself conquer his problem, I realize his refusal to face down his fear is not helping and is only exaggerating the issue and he is refusing to listen to me about anything to do with it, he would rather sit there and allow it to be what it is, block it out, ignore it, and just not sleep in his bed at all, and I have to say this is frustrating for me both as a spiritual practitioner and as a parent. Anyone that may know of ways to help me out with this or can refer me to someone that has more experience with this I would gladly appreciate hearing about it, I am open to any and all suggestions that I haven't yet tried. Goodnight everyone and Bright Blessings!
Anyways, onto witchy matters, Samhain is coming and the veil is thinning, how many of us have had increased instances of enhanced sensitive awareness via dreams, scrying, divinatory practices, and spiritual or "paranormal" activity? Here we have had some lightning storms and that is known to stir up energy that spirits, ghosts, and other entities can use to manifest their presence into the living side of the veil. Myself being a Highly Sensitive Person, I have noticed a strong change in the spiritual atmosphere here at home and other places I have been, I always get that scalp tingling sensation and all of my internal sensors perk up when I know something or someone is roaming around. As we approach Samhain, the veil is going to become wide open and we will see, feel, and experience all types of things that go bump in the dark! One of my personal Samhain observances is that I make a point to set up my scrying and divination tools, set up a small altar made specifically to honor and invite spirits into my space, a ritual offering is usually set up on a side table and somewhere in the room I set up a voice recorder. This is the best night in all the world to do paranormal investigating!! I am a huge fan of the "Ghost Hunters" show. Conducting my own experiences with the paranormal is a side hobby of mine and every year on Halloween I do some kind of ritual work and do a bit of paranormal investigating. To date I have not actually captured any voices on the recorder but I have heard noises and other forms of contact and have had the experience of strong awareness of spirits in my immediate space, I have been touched and I have seen a few things that were definitely not my imagination! Woe is me I do not own a good video recorder yet!! You're about to find out why I need one in a minute....
However this year is going to be different, I am taking my son out with some friends to a few neighborhoods for candy and a bit of fun, and I am going to leave the ritual table and scrying tools set up and the sound recorder running while I am gone until I get home, I am very curious to see if anything happens while I am gone for a few hours. I might strategically set up one of my phones to act as a video recorder to see if that will get me anything. Why am I doing this you ask? Well I have had this issue going on with my son who is 12, as of May 2014, he has abandoned his bedroom entirely claiming up and down with vehement unwavering conviction that there is someone or something in his bedroom at night while he is trying to sleep, and according to him, only person can see or hear it is him. Trying to get him to conquer his near paralyzing anxiety and fear of sleeping in his own bed again is near impossible, and all attempts of mine to get him to sleep in there results in screaming, crying, and complete emotional meltdowns from him and I have tried everything I know to get him over it. I have tried blessing and cleansing the room twice, cleaning every surface ceiling to floor, rearranging the furniture, and everything I can think of, he still refuses point blank to sleep in there.
I hesitate to involve any other outside sources of help at the moment, firstly my "family" is of no help or support, the first thing I was accused of was "conjuring something" in my house and I got this evil eyed glare and finger pointing so the guilt and blame was centered on me as if I somehow have something to do with it, this really did not help considering my son was listening to the whole conversation I was having with them at the time and of course he was then inclined to believe them over me, and looking at me with doubt, suspicion and skepticism that anything that I was going to do and the fact I am a witch was not going to help him and yes that really hurt my feelings. Oh sure try and destroy and belittle my own child's faith in me to protect him. Let me say now for the record that I really and truly despise and detest Baptists and all forms of so called high and mighty "Christian" faith, or at least those that want to sit there and slander, berate and demonize their own family and make problems ten times worse than what it should be. There are probably great people that are of Christian faith but to this day I have not met one at least where I live anyways. The "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" mentality is alive and well here. I really don't want the local clergy of any kind involved and there isn't many people I know that shares my of spiritual practice or beliefs that I can ask right this minute to help me out. Now the only thing I know to do is set up the recorders and other things, and start investigating a bit to see what, if anything, is really going on. I am reserving a final judgment and opinion on the whole matter until I see or experience proof with my own 6 senses that what my child is possibly experiencing is really and truly bona fide there and not just a wild conjuration of a overactive imagination and somehow he has scared himself silly. I can actually say for a 100% fact that hat he is experiencing is truth or not yet, so I am maintaining a bit of healthy practical common sense and grounded realistic views of this right now.
The supposed person, entity, ghost, spirit, or what or whomever is bothering him, apparently stands next to his bed, breathes audibly, shuffles around the room, moves the bedcovers, and lurks in the doorway. I personally feel and sense nothing in the room when I go in there either during the day or nighttime for anything. However my poor kid is utterly convinced there is something in there that is going to get him if he so much as goes near his bed at night. He claims if I enter the room "it" leaves, and when I leave the room it comes back in, there has yet to be a form or shape described of what this thing or person may be, just the overwhelming sense that there is something there with him and it seriously unnerves him and terrifies him to the point of where he will sit hunkered in the floor and bawl his eyes out at the idea of having to sleep in there. We did not ever have this problem up until May 2014. He started coming into my room crying and very upset claiming that something was in there, this isn't something he has ever done while we have lived here. The only other time he has done something like this was when he was two years old and we had just moved into a new house and he had horrible screaming nightmares that he couldn't describe because he couldn't talk well then and eventually it subsided and disappeared. But for the 3 1/2 years we have lived here in our apartment he has slept in his bed, gone to bed on time and slept through the night, no problems whatsoever up until May. I am not yet sure if he has had a very upsetting nightmare, or something has actually happened in there to scare the wits out of him and he refuses to confront this or have any self power over it himself to help himself conquer his problem, I realize his refusal to face down his fear is not helping and is only exaggerating the issue and he is refusing to listen to me about anything to do with it, he would rather sit there and allow it to be what it is, block it out, ignore it, and just not sleep in his bed at all, and I have to say this is frustrating for me both as a spiritual practitioner and as a parent. Anyone that may know of ways to help me out with this or can refer me to someone that has more experience with this I would gladly appreciate hearing about it, I am open to any and all suggestions that I haven't yet tried. Goodnight everyone and Bright Blessings!
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Friday 10-3,-2014
Hello to all my lovelies and I apologize fervently for the delay, due to no internet at home I have been seriously behind on everything and now I have way too much work to be catching up on. I just got service restored today so now I can get back everything that has been so sadly neglected! This Full Moon on October 8th, is in the sign of Aries and it is also a eclipse so any magic done during this time is going to get a fiery boost from the hotheaded warrior sign. Work that we do during and after this time may blast off towards the stratosphere of success, but also so might family matters that come to a head like a raging volcano. Eclipse energy affects and shapes the next 6 months of our lives so be careful about suddenly deciding to end a relationship, walking out of your job, moving out of your homes, or any rash and impulsive decisions , as the Aries sign is notorious for occasionally doing things in a reckless and fired up manner. However, occasionally these sudden impulse hothead decisions also have their upsides, we may finally get enough fire in our blood to do the right thing for ourselves to change and transform a situation in our lives that no longer is good for us. Some of us will get a fire lit under our arses and finally get those long over due projects done at home and at work and suddenly we might finally go for something or someone we have been wanting in our lives for a good while but have not had enough guts until now to go for it.
I intend to use the fire energy to get more writing in my books done, I might actually get them done if I put in enough time and effort. I need this exhausted slug mode to disappear so I have the will and energy to actually get this done I have seriously put it off too long! I will also be renewing my efforts to find a full time 40 hour a week job. I have not had a full time work schedule since October 13, 2013 and I'm getting a bit frustrated with going hand to mouth on itty bitty sales and the occasional commissions from my online work sites. Being self employed is not always what it's cracked up to be even if the pros outweigh the cons. I enjoy being self employed but on the other hand I wish somehow I could hit a jackpot with pay. I made a horrible mistake to my Amazon a-store, I was trying to edit a category page and I ended up deleting the entire contents of the page and now I have to go back and re-add every damn piece of it! But maybe this wasn't just my screw up, perhaps a sign I actually needed to fix it to start with? I normally don't make mistakes that bad. I am going to go for now my lovelies I have a ton of work to be doing and the full moon is coming so if I want to see something manifest I need to hop to it and get busy!! Bright Blessings to all!
I intend to use the fire energy to get more writing in my books done, I might actually get them done if I put in enough time and effort. I need this exhausted slug mode to disappear so I have the will and energy to actually get this done I have seriously put it off too long! I will also be renewing my efforts to find a full time 40 hour a week job. I have not had a full time work schedule since October 13, 2013 and I'm getting a bit frustrated with going hand to mouth on itty bitty sales and the occasional commissions from my online work sites. Being self employed is not always what it's cracked up to be even if the pros outweigh the cons. I enjoy being self employed but on the other hand I wish somehow I could hit a jackpot with pay. I made a horrible mistake to my Amazon a-store, I was trying to edit a category page and I ended up deleting the entire contents of the page and now I have to go back and re-add every damn piece of it! But maybe this wasn't just my screw up, perhaps a sign I actually needed to fix it to start with? I normally don't make mistakes that bad. I am going to go for now my lovelies I have a ton of work to be doing and the full moon is coming so if I want to see something manifest I need to hop to it and get busy!! Bright Blessings to all!
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