April Full Moon Update 4-30-2016

Hello Everyone and Bright Blessings! I wanted to update on what has happened since the Full Moon, Wednesday I went out customer hunting and recruiting for Representative for my Avon business,and I had a huge success. So far I have 16 potential new customer contacts, a new Representative sign up, and a couple more that may be interested in becoming Representatives. I'm gonna spend the rest of the week on the phone! I am positive that part of my success was because I took my Money Drawing charm bags with me, and dabbed myself in some of my handmade oil before I left the house! A little magic and some good sales and recruiting tactics made for a great day on the job!

However I am feeling the effects of the retrograde that just started a couple of days ago, already I am seeing communication breakdowns, with friends, customers, and the last three jobs I have applied to haven't yielded positive results either, so it's sit and wait it out until May 22nd when the retrograde ends. I have had to reschedule my two known Representative meetings until this coming Tuesday, that does not do my business any good! Recently I guess I broke things off with a guy I was somewhat trying to establish some kind of relationship with. He ended things with a cruel and painful " We aren't friends and we never were. It's best we go back to not speaking, delete my number and I'll do the same" Instead of being a bigger man and accepting that I wasn't attracted to him that way, he got really angry and lashed out at me instead, which got him his head bit off and spat back at him in return. What started this whole downward spiral with him? Well we aren't physically compatible, and instead of him acknowledging or even trying to accept that fact, and being a bigger man about it, he just kept pushing, and honestly acting like a total ass because I turned him down. If I don't feel any spark of anything with you, well pushing me into it isn't going to get you anywhere either except to really make me mad depending on how shitty it is you keep acting. Something about what he said to me sparked a huge surge of doubt and insecurity within myself, about how many real friends do I really have, and how many people do I really have in my life that actually and honestly care about me as much as they say they do?
I keep having dreams of people from the past, and about a couple of ones in particular, trying to decipher the real meanings behind the why of that, and what it all means has my mind and insides upside down too. I am personally hoping the rest of the retrograde isn't like this because I am personally in for a hard ride if it continues to be so. Right now I really do feel like the world and everything in it is having a great time trying to kick me where it hurts the most.
Earlier I chewed a bit of white sage and mugwort, while asking Higher Powers for cleansing and clarity from the inside out. It gives a pleasant and relaxed sensation, and I at least feel lighter inside. It is good to try an clear emotional heaviness from yourself so you can think and feel things like you should instead of what everyone else wants you to think and feel.Us Empaths have to be very careful about picking up and carrying other's emotional baggage, and having others projecting their own crap on us so they don't have to deal with it themselves. As we all know, Beltane is tomorrow, and everyone that I know is celebrating the long awaited holiday. I am not sure yet if I want to celebrate, maybe tomorrow I will feel better inside and I will endeavor to get back to my usual witchy self. for now my lovelies I am going to call it a night, and go write in my journals about the things I have seen and dealt with this week. Writing is both my passion and my form of therapy, I can process and let out emotions, thoughts and feelings on paper that I could never say out loud  or express to others. Everyon have a Blessed Bealtane, and I will return witht he New Moon, coming May 6th....

April 22, 2016 Full Moon.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings. How is everyone's Full moon in Scorpio going so far? Feeling some deep emotions and processing some deep inner workings aren't we? The theme for this Full Moon period, until the New Moon, is reconciling and forgiving old hurts, and doing some strong processing and purging of things that no longer serve our lives, mentally, physically, and spiritually. Pining away for that lover that is long gone or the one that got away? Perhaps either attempt a reconciliation with this person, to see if there anything left to rekindle or build back up, or resolve to let them go, go and talk to or go and see them even if it is just to gain acceptance that you and them need to move on and go with the flow of life. If couples have recently split, now is the time to process that let down or disappointment, and move on to better and brighter things. Nursing a old grudge or still brooding over a burned trust issue from ages ago? This will be time to clear it away and release it from your life and be free of it. Keeping that stiff upper lip, giving the silent treatment, or refusing to acknowledge that things are not going too great,will solve nothing, except to only bury those deep and dark feelings deeper where they will fester. This Full Moon, our emotions are a wildly careening roller coaster ride through high and low, and we are anything but grounded. We might encounter serious volcanic eruptions of emotions, or just break down in floods of a much needed crying jag, which ends up becoming like a dam with a crack that bursts free and floods out, providing that much needed release that we have been needing for awhile now. There are a whopping 4 planets in retrograde, and Mercury is about to be number 5 to go retrograde really soon, from April 28th until May 22nd, so we will go from eruptions of emotional release and some deep processing, to possibly not speaking or communicating very well. On top of what is already slowed down, Mercury will slow it down even further, this is the time that we reassess our lives and everything in it, to examine what needs to go and who needs to stay, and go back and fix sloppy work, mend previously broken or suffering relationships, and go redo projects of all kinds that were left half finished.
Even I have felt some let downs frustrations, and have been examining some things from the past, and I have seen several people that I have had past issues and problems with, just suddenly enter my life again, and even though I am somewhat not too thrilled about that, well obviously there is a reason for that. The last couple of days have been hard, I discovered my light bill  had not been paid, and then my power was shut off just recently. I will get into that later, it's a complicated story best saved for another time. I got my power back on yesterday. I missed going out to do my Avon work that day too, because I was too busy trying to fix my home related disaster. Today I missed a chance to go out and do something else, because well my worn out body decided it needed sleep a lot more and I turned off the phone! I have not gotten the two jobs that I recently applied for, and that maybe just as well too. I had a appointment set up to go to a college and talk to admissions, and well I guess I am not going to that either, as no one is available for a ride there, even with the offer of gas being paid! My life lately has become a complicated story of " two steps forward and ten back",and I have to say it is becoming quite aggravating!
This weekend we will see some interesting synchronicity being played out between people, events and situations that correlates to the Full Moon, you might be thinking about a special someone and receive a call from them, or have a dream that comes true, or hear several people mention a particular phrase over the course of a day's time. Pay attention and look where that leads you, for repeating signs often point to something we need to understand and learn, or a situation we need to investigate further. Last night I did my usual spell work, but his time I added in some "reconciliation" petitions and a unblocking element to the working. My St Martha petition and my Money Drawing petition seemed to be most favored, as those candles burnt brightly and quickly. the St Holy Death candle was slow and that was probably mostly because of that candle being bigger, and requiring more time to burn. We will see what happens I suppose, and how things go over the next two weeks,  I'm gonna go for now, like always there is work to be done, an the Witch's work is never done! Have a Blessed day and I will return soon!  

April 7th New Moon Update

Hello Everyone and Bright Blessings. How was everyone's New Moon?  I apologize for not bieng back sooner, I have been up to my eyes in Avon work, and just today I published a new book. " The Darkened Path: Beyond The Veil"  is my newest work in The Darkened Path Series, it is currently available in printed and Kindle versions. My New Moon period went ok. I did my usual spell work and charged up my bags. The night was windy so I had to be careful of the burning candles. It has been made aware to me that a particular pattern between myself and a lot of other people keeps coming back around and the situations at their essential cores are still the same, however there are some challenging and potentially problematic aspects that have now come into the picture. When people and their situations keep returning to your life in some form or another, you have to look at the patterns and the situations that come from those patterns and figure out what you are either  meant to see and learn from them, or how it is that the situations and the people involved need to change, be reconciled, a resolution needs to come about, or it may be that the entire situation and the people involved need to be just gotten rid of entirely so that new things can come along. In my experience, when people and situations from the past keep coming up or making themselves known, there is always something to be learned or something that needs to be changed about it so that there is a final resolution, a reconciliation, or a end needs to be put to it all for good.
Of course when you think something has ended, there always seems to be someone or something has to come along and attempt to revive it again, that agitator seems to always be the catalyst that shakes up a lot of unresolved issues in their wake. In my personal case, there is a narcissistic monster that just refuses to give up  and just will not shut up. I now get a weekly letter filled with all sorts of sneering, passive aggressive, acidic put downs and laughable sugarcoated threats about what will or will not happen to me if I do not respond and the constant "Where would you be without me?" types of ideas is getting to the point to where it is quite obsessive and nearly a form of stalking.
What will happen to me? Absolutely nothing. Because they have no say, will, or power over me or anything or anyone to do with  my life in any way, shape, or form. That idea is quite literally eating a hole into their insane twisted little mind and it is driving them to the point of having a mental stroke because they cannot call, text, or come over here to force themselves onto our lives. I could fire back a letter of my own, loaded with enough verbal TNT to make a nuclear blast look like a sparkler, but that is above me, and I don't feel like wasting paper and printer ink just to type it out and then waste a perfectly good stamp and envelope just to send it to someone that doesn't deserve my words, a second of my time, or even a speck of my acknowledgement. I know what kind of person I am and where I am now, and it is because of what I myself have done to get me there,I am going to have to go for now, I will update again soon, and not take as long this next time, Blessed Be to All!

Eclipse Update 4-2-2016

Hello everyone and Bright blessings. How has everyone been doing since I was here last? I have to say that events have been up and down and inside out this past week. First I went to that meeting with the Avon client I mentioned, and she never showed up, after I had spent all morning getting ready and I almost didn't even get get a ride there to meet her, she bailed and never has called me back. Being let down and disappointed in front of my District Manager, who was good enough to come and get me,was extremely embarrassing and awkward.That event seemed to set off a avalanche of ill luck... most of customers have not placed orders, the newer customer leads don't answer the phone, a couple of days ago I am 100% positive that I was lost a customer, because of someone else running their mouth about what kind of person I supposedly am, and I all but caught them in the act, even though I didn't hear the words, well I had a strong suspicion that I was the subject of conversation if body language and general gut feelings were correct. You know how that is, you walk past someone and you just KNOW they were just talking about you? I do not appreciate the other person sabotaging my business or trying to undermine my reputation that way because they cant take "NO" for an answer and they decide to be a spiteful person and retaliate in such a immature and childish way just because they didn't get what they wanted from me.. I felt it was rather obvious about why it was that my customer decided to suddenly not place a order the next day when I called her. Just today I discovered my bank account is overdrawn by nearly $50.00 because of a bill that was automatically paid. so the customers that have placed orders have to wait until they can pay me, so I can put money in the bank, and pay for their orders. Nope this has not been my week. A uncrossing and road opening spell sounds like a very good idea right now!
There' a bright spot in my troubles, I have payments coming in for previous orders very soon, so that might salvage my recent bout of seemingly bad luck. I have finally as of today, gotten all of my exams done and I can finally receive my Natural Health Consultation certificate. I currently have a 96% grade average which qualifies me to receive a Highest Honors certificate. On Friday April 1st I had a job interview in Jefferson City. and if I am really lucky I will have a new job soon, when I called the place they asked me for a interview right then, so I went over here, filed out my application, and answered a few questions, and the lady at the staffing office told me to come back on Monday to do further testing and then I guess we will see what happens.
Yesterday I took in a stray orange, grey mixed tabby and white calico female cat, she's about a year old if I were to guess, she's not very big , a bit on the skinny side, but that might be because she hasn't seen a dish of real food in days, she is litter trained and has fantastic manners, so someone has either set her out or she is someone's once loved kitten that no one wants. According to one of my neighbors she has been  hanging around for about three days before I found her, It's a possibility she belongs to one of the neighbors but no one has yet reported her missing, so for now she is with me, getting good food, love, and a taste of life with a witch. She had been fighting with something,with missing patches of fur and some older wounds that are healed over and fur growing back over them. My guess is that she has been a stray longer than a week , even maybe a month. I am also hoping she is not actually pregnant, as the recent signs of heat were probably why she has been out wandering or cast out of her house. while I would personally love to see cute bundles of fluffy joy, my housing manager would not be too keen on that idea. My other male cat Smoky, has taken to hiding in my son's room, he's very skittish of her and hisses and yowls at the sight of her. I thought surely he would be a aggressive bullying ass and go on the warpath but oddly he has become the extreme opposite when faced with a female that isn't even half his size. so I guess until he gets over his bruised ego and stops acting like a nervous wreck he will be camping out in my son's room with a separate bowl of food and continue to hide and sulk. He is neutered so he is not going to be a father anytime soon. One growl and a hard stare from his new housemate has him running back through the house upset, it's somewhat comical but I still have to go baby the poor boy, he's always been the spoiled one and he's never seen or been around another cat before. He doesn't understand how and why something that ain't even half his weight and size is still tougher than him, and just comes in his house and acts like she has always been living here. I just hope he will adjust soon, and at least try to accept her, if not I will have to find her another home, which pains me to think about because Adam has already gave her a name which is "Sugar Momma".
Sugar Momma, which suits her sweet personality, is currently laying under my feet as I type this,  is quite content, full of milk and Meow Mix, and has had more attention than probably her whole life thus far, pet her and she warms up and soaks it up like a needy sponge. I have to wonder who once had her, and how she came to be with me, but I am glad that she is here, for in a wandering stray, I see something of myself  in her. For once upon a time I was a wandering stray too, with no home, cast away from everything that I knew was my life, going through  major life crises, and fighting for everything I had left. Unlike me, she gets a chance for someone to take her in, love her for what she is, with all of her beat up scars and skinniness and everything else, feed her, and provide her some measure of comfort and stability, in a world where people are just as soon to kick you out like you are nothing and no one, and let you starve, and tell you to survive on your own however which way you can. If by chance she happens to be pregnant, well all the more reasons to give her what she needs now. How many of us mothers have also been in her place? Sadly and too often that has also been too many of us. It might be just as well she is here, if the humans that had her before really don't want her or she has been a stray for months, well now she has her chance to have what she deserves. Life with a witch is a blessed life. So mote it be.