Hello everyone and Bright Blessings, and Happy Independence Day to those who are celebrating. While I am not allowed to do fireworks where we live at (rules state on the lease), I am sure we will see our share of a good show from the people that live around us. Tonight is a New Moon in Cancer, and areas of relationships of all sorts will be highlighted. This can be either a business or a love relationship that begins, or begins anew, and the 14 days from tonight's New moon will bring us deep into the "all or nothing" relationship zone. We will officially recognize and cement serious relationships, from business mergers to even marriage proposals under the Cancer moon's influence.
I have not had the time to do any spells or any serious ritual work in what is now going on two whole months now...and that has become a huge mistake. I just recently enrolled into the AS of Business Management course at Virginia College, and this week has been non stop work on the first week of class. I also have not really had any major motivation or a real pull towards getting out the altar supplies or the spell casting materials. I have been going through a magical slump if you'd call it that. I haven't touched my spell bags in over a month, and I even put away all of my spell jars, they are all sitting in a drawer, waiting on me to remember and maybe renew my work with them, and come back to them. I started to feel like nothing I was working on or trying to achieve was gaining me the result or the manifestation that I was aiming for and I became somewhat turned off from trying. So one day in a fit of frustrated annoyance and the feeling of being totally dejected and "Why do I bother?" and " where is the point?" spurred me into striding to my room, and I started just taking down all of my jars from the tables, all of my bags from their usual spots, and in a dark drawer they all went.
I am a strong and realistic minded Capricorn, and if for any reason I feel like somehow that I failed, or something isn't giving me the result I am working towards, or I am seriously unsatisfied with something, it usually gets dumped and forgotten about in a fit of angry disgust. I personally cannot stand to feel like something I am working on is not working or is not happening in the way that I intended, especially after I have already put forth a lot of time and effort into it, and especially if it was something that I once felt had a purpose or a meaning to it, that will make me feel like I failed, or that I wasted my time in trying, and the feeling of failure and wasted time and effort, makes me feel despondent and sometimes will make me angry and I will say screw it and chuck it and abandon all interest in it for awhile.
That of course doesn't mean I actually failed, even I know that sometimes spells and magical workings just are not meant to happen, or the timing or the situations surround it, is not ideal for it to manifest, or even that there might be something totally different and perhaps better waiting on me to take notice of that Goddess and God has planned for me. But for right now, well those spell jars and the bags are going to stay in the drawer, until I regain my spark, and go back to being my usual witchy self. Tonight's post probably wasn't so cheerful or full of spark , and I apologize for that, but I really have to go for now. There's another week of college to attend, more work to do, and a witch's work is never done...
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