So something or a someone is divinely trying to speak to me.. The thought has been divinely seeded into my subconscious mind to make a petition for fertility, as in the baby making kind of fertility. Earlier today I found myself intently reading articles on a Santeria information website about the Orishas Yemaya and Oshun, the spiritual deities of Santeria and may other similar spiritual practices whom are related to sex, conception, motherhood, fertility and other reproductive matters. Fertility can mean a great number of things and does not have to specify making babies.. I was drawn in and absorbed very strongly into this as if something was pulling me into it saying.. "Do this petiton, ask us for this favor!" "This is the right choice and the right spirit to ask for this!"
Now what baffles me about this..is that I medically am not supposed to be able to conceive again. I had a tubal ligation 10 years ago, so even if I made the physical attempt to conceive a baby there is a 95% chance it may not happen, and if it does happen well the chance of a dangerous tubal pregnancy is still very high. Secondly, well there is currently no one in my life at the moment that I am planning to be initiating any type of conception acts with, that is unless some sexy stranger pops up out of the blue and things get a bit wild and shazam!! Instant conception via spiritual and divine intervention. I have read several accounts and heard many stories about women becoming pregnant and carrying a full term pregnancy after having a tubal ligation. Medical statistics state this happens in about 10 out of 1500 pregnancies, due to incorrectly done procedures and the occasion that something goes awry after the tubal ligation is done, that it heals back together or somehow a fistula type space opens up in the closed off tube to allow a matured egg to pass down to the uterus and it gets fertilized. Usually the egg gets attached to the tube and not in the uterus, resulting in the dangerous tubal pregnancy. I feel that no amount of modern medical procedures and science can halt or deny something so natural and strong as the human reproductive system and the divine will of God and Goddess to bless us with babies will prevail despite what medical science says is "impossible". I doubt that the number of reported normal pregnancies is correct, the instances of a normal 40 week pregnancy after a tubal ligation is probably much higher than 10.. probably more like 100 or more since no one in the medical community wants to admit their surgical blunders and the fact that oh they are occasionally wrong!
So why and how it is that I am being inexplicably drawn into making this type of petition to a couple of spiritual deities that are not normally a specific part of my chosen path? I am a bit curious and confused. I have sometimes questioned to myself about why exactly Saint Holy Death seems to favor me too but I am not fool enough to argue with what Mrs. Death wants or needs from me..who wants to argue about or question anything with a spirit that controls all types of death and transformations on such a powerful scale?! I am not yet brave enough to go and ask her yet so I just keep on with what I do with and for her and let her be part of my life in however way she sees fit. so if Orishas' Yemaya and Oshun want to step in and become part of my life I guess I can't argue with that either. But there is something I often ponder.. why do different deities and spirits from other cultures and practices decide to come to someone that isn't directly affiliated or a devotee to them and say " Make a altar for me and come visit and chat with me, and ask me for this favor and we will see what I can do for you?" It must not matter exactly what faith, practice or culture you are?? So if a spirit, God Goddess or deity shows itself in some way to you and gives your magical abilities and inner conscious a hard jolt well perhaps it is best to open your brain and senses and pay attention to why and what the reason is for that even if you are having serious questions and reservations...
While I was reading these pages on the Orishas and reading down through the information about offerings, rituals, instructions, etc.. the fertility idea sparked like a hot wire in my mind and my subconscious intuition was literally shouting at me to go and make a supply list and run to the shops and stores that have the supplies required and buy them ASAP. Because for some as yet unknown reason I am definitely going be needing this stuff by the 15th of May, the three day period before the New Moon, and that yes I am going to be doing this petition on the weekend of the New Moon and that it must be done during this time frame.. Then I decided to go check a horoscope page I like to read from Susan Miller..it quotes
"" The new moon in the same romantic sector (fifth house) will take over when Mars leaves. The new moon will arrive on May 18, in Taurus, 27 degrees. This new moon will light your fifth house of true love and ordinarily bring you your very best opportunity to enjoy romance and if single, find love."" "" The new moon of May 18 will continue to carry the theme of love and an increasingly busy social life for you, but this moon comes with troublesome aspects. You may be thinking about one of your children and how best to help her, or about a pregnancy you would like to initiate." " If your birthday falls on January17, plus or minus four days, you will benefit from this new moon the most. The same is true if you have Capricorn rising 27 degrees, plus or minus five degrees, or have a natal planet at that degree with the same mathematical tolerance, in Capricorn, Virgo, Taurus, Scorpio, or Pisces."" Let me specify right now that my birthday is January 18th...I also have a daughter that lives out of state.. so I maybe having to be there for her in some way that she needs. I've been single for 5 years now.. who is going to be looking me up and down and having serious ideas about me being their cute housebunny and sweet baby momma? What exactly is the universe planning to drop into my life exactly well I guess I will be finding out very soon!
My stubborn brain and the part of which usually has strong and logical common sense, is telling me this fertility petition idea is a bit absurd that I should not attempt to be doing this and why am I considering this? However the deeper intuition is stoutly debating with my common sense and screaming and jumping up and down with excitement and fervor at me to do it anyway. That I must do this ritual and petition and it must be these two specific Orisha that I go to and ask for this fertility favor and no one else. That there is no reason why I should not do this and I most certainly will be setting up this altar and buying the necessary tools and supplies and offerings. I can only hope that if I really decide to listen to this buzzing in my brain that something really fantastic will emerge from it.
I was strongly reminded of a dream I had back in February 2014, it rattled me so much that I wrote it down and drove myself crazy thinking about it for weeks, and then I stored it away in my journal and said I would go back to it later... Of which in said dream I was in a doctors office, laid out on a exam table and watching this male, white headed, elderly doctor do a 3-D ultrasound scan and lo and behold I saw twin boys and in the dream you could see the babies very clearly in the screen on the machine, they even had a likeness of blonde hair and the size and shape of the babies indicated they were very far along in gestational age. Perhaps it is time for this dream to begin the manifestation into reality in my waking life.. and the spirits that want to help me see this come to be is Orisha Yemaya and Orisha Oshun. So I will be writing again about this very soon, and telling you all what is going on with this in a few days and what the result might be. Bright Blessings to Everyone and I will return shortly!!
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