I was reading past posts that I made a year ago to date. I swear some Higher Power enjoys their deliberate actions of irony and humor when it comes to my life. I don't know if I would call it humorous or not but that depends on one's perspective. If anyone has been keeping note on the posts I make in detail, one would notice a pattern with a ongoing personal theme in my life concerning one specific person. To update those that haven't noticed.. Last June of 2014, and all the way until September of that year, I went through a miserable separation from someone very special to me, and that time in my life did not go very well for me emotionally or in any other way, in fact I was pretty much ripped away and forcibly separated from someone I consider to be a soul mate in a sense, there may not be that fantastic "in love" and blazing passionate chemistry, but that is not what a twin flame or a soul mate is exactly and that is not the true purpose of that type of love to begin with. It did not seem to matter what we felt, what we wanted, or what we needed, it happened anyway as if it were meant to happen and we had no control or power over the events, Goddess, God , and Higher Powers, and who knows else, decided this was going to happen because it needed to happen and never mind what we might have felt about it. It took me awhile to see that it was not just about me and my friend.. there was something more going on that was not mundane and not entirely on the human level of conscious and unconscious perspective and interaction.
Well ironically, now I am the one separating from them, and having to leave them behind, and the time frame matches exactly the time frame from last year, and I moved away from them this past June pretty much a year exactly to the day, and there is more distance between us, I am at the opposite end of town, about 20 minutes away. I have a suspicion that some Higher Power devised this into being as a well timed and deliberate synchronization of events meant for a very good purpose. I just have to keep paying attention. I wonder if it will take until September before things straighten out again? That was how long it took last year before I summoned some courage and contacted them then we made amends and tried to work out some differences. Another irony I have noticed with the situation, is concerning their occupational life, as part of the reasons we did not get along so peachy during that past time period was their unrelenting and excessive amount of time spent at a new job. And how much time they were giving to other areas and other people in their lives to the point of total alienation of everyone and everything else that should have been just as important and just as much of a priority. And again, this year, their life is centered almost exclusively on their work and business relations and never mind anyone and anything else that might be needing their time and attention, and it has slowly been eroding and tearing apart theirs and other's lives.
this year, the same time period has come again but instead of us fighting and snarling over how unhappy we are with each other, I ended up just having to move, and the process of this move started in April, with the incident with my previous landlady all but dissolving my lease for me, again something I was not prepared or ready to have to go through. April 2014 also was the exact same time last year, when my friend and I first started having severe communication breakdowns, horrid disagreements and heated spats about every little thing coming and going that we were not happy or fulfilled about and we were at a unresolvable crossroads as to how to make it work and if it could work at all, so they gave in and said it was best we separate. We were hurting each other in ways that were destructive and damaging to the foundations of our relationship when what we should have been doing was finding more concrete and stable ways to build it up stronger.
So Higher Powers, Goddess, God intervened again and decided that in order for us to not have to go through the same exact thing as last year, and for there to not be heated arguments and hurt feelings and all sorts of other miserable issues, They decided to intercede on both of our behalf before it got to that point, and change my life and theirs for what probably is a better and higher good, and just move me away from it all entirely and at a safer and more protective distance and to make room for changes that need to happen. There has also been no verbal or other communication which means we are not screaming, arguing, and snarling at each other over things we just do no have the power to change or do anything about. It is not in our best interest or for the best interest of our lives to be doing that, and there apparently needs to be space and distance put between us if things are to change for what hopefully is a much better outcome later on for both of our sakes. My daughter is coming in to visit on the 3rd of July, and I recall a horrible scene from the Independence Day holiday last year at the same time, that ended really badly. Fireworks were not the only things that exploded and burnt to ash that day in a blaze of temper. This year that will not happen, seeing as I am not there anymore and there wont be anything for us to fight about. I recall a conversation we had before I left , about how we were going to work things out between us since I was moving, and I said "I think this will be a positive change for both of us in the end" We will see if I was right.. and let us see what happens later.. perhaps when September comes again.
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