The Full Moon is tomorrow. I have not had the greatest couple of weeks, today for instance, I removed a "friend" from my life. Said friend was becoming more and more toxic verbally, emotionally, and psychologically towards me, my associations with others, and themselves, and I felt it was no longer my place or purpose to be part of their life. After we had got into a heated snarling match day before yesterday and said person hit a very sensitive topic and hot button of mine the wrong way, and had already been pushing their luck, and my patience for weeks, I finally blew a fuse and cut this person off, in response to being ignored they called me so much and tried to blow up both my home line and my cell to where I ended up calling the phone company for instructions of how to block the number. nevermind the message I received on FB, that was just blocked and deleted. all methods of contact has now been deleted, blocked, and erased.
I don't feel guilt or remorse because this person has some issues they seriously need to work on and I am not going to be the outlet for the constant negativity or have it impact my life and of others I associate with in unhealthy ways. Of course my decision was met with fury, denial, pleading, and then insults and more negative reactions. I am not changing my mind or reneging on my decision out of remorse, guilt, or pity because there isn't any. I was so annoyed and frustrated with it all that I felt it best to not work on any serious spell work this weekend, aside from charging my bags and crystals and perhaps a bit of protection and shielding might not be a bad idea. I have from tonight until Monday to refocus my energy in case I decide to work on anything requiring moderate amounts of energy.
On a brighter note, onto a new interesting subject I am now researching, I had my aura read from a friend, of which I have never really had done before. I discovered my aura is a dark blue or indigo, and I have a massive, black dragon guardian. Whom is very serious and secretive about sharing anything between himself and outsiders. I know very little about dragons and their magic, however I do know that dragons are fierce, possessive guardians and protectors of what and whom they consider theirs. They do not like everyone and if they don't like you, well I guess you are just going to be crispy fried like KFC chicken if you push the wrong button. They are wise and all knowing in regards to learning how to master oneself. I have always felt a massive looming presence with me for as long as I can remember, and now I think back on all of those incidents with hot and electrical objects when I was a kid and during my teen years and I have to wonder if that was a early sign of my protector, even if it was scary and sometimes dangerous.
But I never got to be revealed too much as to what and whom it may had been until now. Before I only got to see glimmers, and a shape that I was convinced was someone/something brooding, potentially dangerous and had a very reserved and cool energy, and I am somewhat mollified to discover that he is apparently very huge, very old, black or dark in color, hence the "dark" presence, its not the personality it is in fact the coloring. I cant go into this description too much lest I be considered some sort of lunatic. Not everyone believes in dragons or "mythical creatures" let alone the concept of having one for a guardian. Research the term "Otherkin"..that seems to be rather interesting and informative.
Now I have to muster up some big brass and figure out how to be more in tune and how to really work with this awe inspiring creature that sees fit to watch over and teach me a few things. It at least explains my attraction to art, and objects that resemble half human demons, dark angels, and similar creatures.. they usually are all depicted to have dragon type wings.. hmm. It seems important that I not share too much about him or his purpose or anything he might be teaching me.. apparently that is supposed to be just between us for now until I get the formal permission to share it. I find it rather amusing in a way.. imagine the little tiny petite girl has a black, fire breathing, dragon the size of her house watching down on her. Does anyone else that reads my posts know anything about dragons? If so, don't hesitate to share with me your experiences and what you have learned thus far. This is a entirely new concept to me and any advice or instruction I could learn would be greatly appreciated!! Bright Blessings to Everyone!
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