Hello everyone and Bright Blessings. Today is the Full Moon, and I started today by watching my daughter Jasmin leave and go back home to Maine, at 7:30 am this morning. Definitely not the most fantastic and joyous way to start the day and I have to say my mood is heart rending miserable right now. Full Moons are for "releasing" and "letting go" of things, people, situations, and emotions that you need to allow to leave your life in order to make room for other things to manifest and come into your life. My daughter will return next June..as she spends her summer break with me, and spends the rest of her year with her Father in Maine.
Despite a lot of very negative past issues and a bitter and devastating divorce, He and I managed to still maintain and cultivate a strong friendship and we get along to a extent, at least from a distance. I honestly cannot say that I know of too many other divorced couples that have managed to achieve that. We tried reconciliation at one point, let me say that did not go well for either of us. Too many things had been damaged and destroyed between us on too many vital levels for the love to be rekindled in the way it once was..and it took us both a very long 5 years of time to finally get to the point where we are right now, where we can talk about things,and where we can spend brief amounts of time together and it be comfortable and amicable. I am not in love with him anymore as I was 10 years ago, and if I had it to do over again I can confidently say that I would not. It would not be a smart move for either of us to try and go through all of that again. He has recently remarried.. and although I personally feel like that might have not been a wise or well thought out decision on his part or even for the new wife.. that is not my decision and is out of my control. I have to keep most of my thoughts and opinions about that situation to myself, even if I feel I may be right.
I have also moved on..I have let other people be in my life, and I have also allowed myself to give my heart to another, or rather, Goddess and God literally brought that blessing into my life at a very crucial moment.. during a day very similar to today.. and even thought that situation currently is also not going as I wish it would.. there is a reason for that too even if I do not know all the answers as to why yet.
I was supposed to have done my Money Spell last night but I didn't get to, I was too busy making sure Jasmin was ready to go home and my family and personal obligations take precedence over anything else. So tonight I will improvise and do a similar spell and make sure all of my bags, crystals, and tools are left out to charge in the moonlight. I will also write a small petition to ask for a release of the things and emotions that make me feel unhappy and sorrowful, and ask for something positive and meaningful to come around to help me cope with my sense of incompleteness and how it is that my life does not feel whole or fulfilling without my Flower physically being here in mine and her brother's lives. Me sitting here driving myself into a fit of depressed misery will not change anything and will not serve me any real purpose. Time is ticking by quickly today, so best for me to get off my behind and get to work, so I will see you all later, and I will update again soon. Have a Blessed Day!
Saturday, August 29, 2015
Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Light In The Darkness, Candle Divination. 8-26-2015
Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! This past Monday, the 24th, me and the kids were in the dark quite literally, as the power company turned off my electricity because I had not gotten the ridiculously high bill paid in full on time. That night, while sitting in the kitchen really late, in total darkness, a thought came to mind,when I lit a candle with three wicks, I realized that it was also the same candle that was given to me not long ago by someone very special to me, during the occasion when I went without power for three days while I was moving to my new apartment. I had unconsciously lit two wicks of this candle, and it made me think about the person that gave me the candle.The epiphany of that and the intentions of why I got this candle from this one specific person was not lost on me. It was not just about the candle and what I was using it for, but also about the person that gave it to me. The candle was not only just my light in the darkness, it was also a physical representation of thoughts and feelings from the person who gave it to me. It made me think hard about the many times that we had been each other's light during times of darkness.. Two brightly burning wicks.. was reminiscent of a visual image of twin flames. I also noticed that when I tried to light the third wick on the candle that the third wick would not stay lit, the hot wax would just put out the third wick and only leave the other two burning.
Such a small thing.. yet also such a deeply meaningful and enlightening experience. You often don't see the light until you are sitting completely in the dark. You sometimes don't really and truly realize what someone and something really means to you, and what a gift and a blessing they really are to your life until they are just not there anymore. Sometimes you have to be without them, or go without a certain something for awhile, and be in the dark without it, then something will happen to spark your conscious and make you realize and see the big picture for what it really is and not just what you would like to see. Just when you though the darkness was too much to endure..a spark of light appears to light the way.
The meaning I derived from the entire situation, as I sat there in very deep thought watching these two flames flicker and dance together,was that it may be during a sudden dark time in one or both of our lives before "two flames" will see each other and come together again, that even in the darkest of moments, only two flames will get to burn together, and another flame will be repeatedly put out and not be able to stay lit despite attempts being made at keeping it lit. Remember now, when I had three flames lit, and one kept being put out by the hot wax, and only two got to burn? Now my question remains is,what or whom does the third flame represent, what is the situation and who is the person that will not be able to stay "lit" and be repeatedly smothered out? That question has yet to be answered..I just hope it doesn't take another night of darkness before I see that answer come to light.
Such a small thing.. yet also such a deeply meaningful and enlightening experience. You often don't see the light until you are sitting completely in the dark. You sometimes don't really and truly realize what someone and something really means to you, and what a gift and a blessing they really are to your life until they are just not there anymore. Sometimes you have to be without them, or go without a certain something for awhile, and be in the dark without it, then something will happen to spark your conscious and make you realize and see the big picture for what it really is and not just what you would like to see. Just when you though the darkness was too much to endure..a spark of light appears to light the way.
The meaning I derived from the entire situation, as I sat there in very deep thought watching these two flames flicker and dance together,was that it may be during a sudden dark time in one or both of our lives before "two flames" will see each other and come together again, that even in the darkest of moments, only two flames will get to burn together, and another flame will be repeatedly put out and not be able to stay lit despite attempts being made at keeping it lit. Remember now, when I had three flames lit, and one kept being put out by the hot wax, and only two got to burn? Now my question remains is,what or whom does the third flame represent, what is the situation and who is the person that will not be able to stay "lit" and be repeatedly smothered out? That question has yet to be answered..I just hope it doesn't take another night of darkness before I see that answer come to light.
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Seeing Is Believing.. 8-22-2015
Remember the old phrase, "I'll believe it when I see it?" well sometimes I am guilty of having less that stout belief, conviction, and faith in certain things, I'm pretty realistic about a lot, and sometimes a bit of a skeptic, even though I am a strong spiritual person and I have strong beliefs.. We are all guilty of having doubts, suspicions, and even the occasional lack of faith in something happening, or that a situation may not manifest like we wish and hope for it to, especially when we are not being given clear answers and seeing solid signs of what we asked for is going to happen or not. I just have days where I have the thought. "Well when I actually see that it happens I will believe it." and then something will happen to whack you in the head and make you pay attention. I had one of those moments recently, where I saw something spectacular that renewed my faith and hope in something that I have been having a bit of doubts and insecurity about whether or not it will happen. As Jeff Foxworthy and Bill Engvall like to say "Here's your sign!"
A few days ago..me and my daughter walked down the street going to the pharmacy that is a 15 minute walk from my house. Where I live there is a long street of shops and convenience stores that are a few minutes walk down the street. On the way, we went past this shop that had been empty recently but now said "Botanica" and they were open for business, there was a middle aged lady sitting outside and the door was propped open, and I took a glance inside and saw what appeared to be a very cluttered shop that was not yet set up, and I told my daughter that we would visit soon when they had everything more set up and situated. What I did not mention to her was that I had a strong urge and I felt very drawn to go in the store and look around and there was something in there I needed to see or that I was going to find. I "had to" go into that shop.. and I said I will find out why soon enough.
A lot of Latino and South and Central American people that live in my town practice Santeria and various minority faiths, Saint Holy Death and various other saint figures are much venerated in their faith and practice. They have this wonderful blending of Catholic beliefs melded and mixed together with other types of practice and worship that has a fabulously strong vibe to it. "Brujera", or witches, both male and female, in their culture are much respected and also very feared. The shop owners keep their shops secluded and out of the way as there is a strong influence of the LDS and Baptist faiths here also. Best to keep yourself and your items to yourself so as to not draw undue attention.
Now, everyone that reads my blogs, also has noticed that a particular spirit by name of St. Holy Death, seems to have some unusual interest in me and occasionally steps into my life to offer Her guidance and she sometimes does a favor for me when I ask. Despite the fact I am not a full fledged initiate of Santeria or the various offshoot branches of said practice, I do practice Hoodoo and eclectic Paganism, I found something strong in Her Holiness of Death that resonates with me in a way I still cannot fathom or fully explain, so I work with Her and She "likes" me enough to where it usually happens that when I ask a favor She will answer me most of the time. I consider that a very rare privilege! Not everyone can say with a certain confidence that Death is really and truly their "friend" in that sort of way!
For awhile now I have been struggling with a personal issue, how many days, weeks, months, or even years will I have to wait? When and how will I see this situation change or develop into a more positive and rewarding scenario? And if by chance it isn't meant to be.. then why not?
Well the other day my daughter and I went into this shop that I was drawn to and one walk through the little shelves and tiny cramped store and I am in love with everything they have in there. It is stocked floor to ceiling with every kind of 7 day candles, spell ingredients, anointing oils, and odds and ends that I could ever ask to find in one tiny shop. the poor shop owner needs a bigger store or to invest in a storage space! What caught my eyes and made me take in a huge breath of transfixed awe, was the massive and elaborate altar table made especially for Saint Holy Death. Decked out, fully dressed, and fabulously well maintained! It has to be the biggest dedication altar I have yet to see, a whole table set up with two huge 2 foot tall statues of Her, a vast array of candles, offerings, and incenses displayed all around Her and adorning Her. Their table makes my tiny dresser top space look insignificant and "cheap".
Now I knew why I felt so compelled to go into that shop, that was what I needed to see, my sign, She was speaking to me, telling me to com and see Her. I am sure the shopkeeper was quite unsure what to think of me, I , by no means, was someone he would expect to see come into his shop, and he tried his hardest to be polite although he came off as a bit standoffish and slightly rude. I felt like he deliberately refused my credit and said cash only, and made a hurried gesture in checking out my purchases and was hoping I would just leave, although I feel that will soon change when he sees I will be a regular customer as I said I would soon become. Something about me set him on edge and made him uncomfortable and wary and I will soon find out what and why the next time I go visit. Saint Death will surely call to me again and bid me to come back and see Her soon enough!
A few days ago..me and my daughter walked down the street going to the pharmacy that is a 15 minute walk from my house. Where I live there is a long street of shops and convenience stores that are a few minutes walk down the street. On the way, we went past this shop that had been empty recently but now said "Botanica" and they were open for business, there was a middle aged lady sitting outside and the door was propped open, and I took a glance inside and saw what appeared to be a very cluttered shop that was not yet set up, and I told my daughter that we would visit soon when they had everything more set up and situated. What I did not mention to her was that I had a strong urge and I felt very drawn to go in the store and look around and there was something in there I needed to see or that I was going to find. I "had to" go into that shop.. and I said I will find out why soon enough.
A lot of Latino and South and Central American people that live in my town practice Santeria and various minority faiths, Saint Holy Death and various other saint figures are much venerated in their faith and practice. They have this wonderful blending of Catholic beliefs melded and mixed together with other types of practice and worship that has a fabulously strong vibe to it. "Brujera", or witches, both male and female, in their culture are much respected and also very feared. The shop owners keep their shops secluded and out of the way as there is a strong influence of the LDS and Baptist faiths here also. Best to keep yourself and your items to yourself so as to not draw undue attention.
Now, everyone that reads my blogs, also has noticed that a particular spirit by name of St. Holy Death, seems to have some unusual interest in me and occasionally steps into my life to offer Her guidance and she sometimes does a favor for me when I ask. Despite the fact I am not a full fledged initiate of Santeria or the various offshoot branches of said practice, I do practice Hoodoo and eclectic Paganism, I found something strong in Her Holiness of Death that resonates with me in a way I still cannot fathom or fully explain, so I work with Her and She "likes" me enough to where it usually happens that when I ask a favor She will answer me most of the time. I consider that a very rare privilege! Not everyone can say with a certain confidence that Death is really and truly their "friend" in that sort of way!
For awhile now I have been struggling with a personal issue, how many days, weeks, months, or even years will I have to wait? When and how will I see this situation change or develop into a more positive and rewarding scenario? And if by chance it isn't meant to be.. then why not?
Well the other day my daughter and I went into this shop that I was drawn to and one walk through the little shelves and tiny cramped store and I am in love with everything they have in there. It is stocked floor to ceiling with every kind of 7 day candles, spell ingredients, anointing oils, and odds and ends that I could ever ask to find in one tiny shop. the poor shop owner needs a bigger store or to invest in a storage space! What caught my eyes and made me take in a huge breath of transfixed awe, was the massive and elaborate altar table made especially for Saint Holy Death. Decked out, fully dressed, and fabulously well maintained! It has to be the biggest dedication altar I have yet to see, a whole table set up with two huge 2 foot tall statues of Her, a vast array of candles, offerings, and incenses displayed all around Her and adorning Her. Their table makes my tiny dresser top space look insignificant and "cheap".
Now I knew why I felt so compelled to go into that shop, that was what I needed to see, my sign, She was speaking to me, telling me to com and see Her. I am sure the shopkeeper was quite unsure what to think of me, I , by no means, was someone he would expect to see come into his shop, and he tried his hardest to be polite although he came off as a bit standoffish and slightly rude. I felt like he deliberately refused my credit and said cash only, and made a hurried gesture in checking out my purchases and was hoping I would just leave, although I feel that will soon change when he sees I will be a regular customer as I said I would soon become. Something about me set him on edge and made him uncomfortable and wary and I will soon find out what and why the next time I go visit. Saint Death will surely call to me again and bid me to come back and see Her soon enough!
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
Paralleled Circumstances. 8-18-2015
Hi everyone and Bright Blessings Remember the post I made a couple weeks ago titled "Divine Irony"?? If you haven't read it then this post will not make a lot of sense, so I kindly suggest you please go back a few posts and read that one too. Today while scrolling down through my old Facebook posts, I found a post I made on August 20th, 2014, that ironically parallels and coincides yet again to the same and similar situation I and someone else are going through yet again.. with the exception that I was the one initiated the changes and situations this time around, instead of them.
This was what I was feeling and experiencing at that time period exactly a year ago...
I was " Feeling Incomplete" at that time as I had not heard from my friend in weeks, same as now, and the past status reads as follows...
""You miss someone that you love and care about with a fierce and unfulfilled longing that will not disappear no matter what you do to ease it and nothing you do or try to do will make it disappear. You can't talk to or see them anymore, you feel like a piece of you is missing without them, and someone took a huge chunk out of your life where they used to be, like you're missing a hand or some important part of you that should be there. You think too much about all the great things that was once there and all the things you shared with them and how close you once were, and now its gone. You can't go near their house without wishing you could go see them, can't leave your house and actually go anywhere that you usually go, because they were with you there at least once and it's like these places have some memory of them attached to it. Leaving the house to go anywhere else makes you feel like you are somehow leaving them behind and then you want to hurry and go back home because being away from them makes you feel like you shouldn't be anywhere else or spending time with anyone else and being too far away from them makes you have the strong urge to hurry and leave and go back home. And being around other people and trying to do anything with them just aggravates and annoys you.You can't sleep because all you think about is the 1001 things that somehow have their name and memory attached to it. You try to spend time with other people and do other things that have nothing to do with and have no connection or memory with said person and somehow they are still on your mind and you catch yourself talking about them or something and someone catches your attention and then you think of them. Other people are asking you about them, and mention the fact that you don't talk about them anymore ,and ask if you have you seen or talked to them? Your phone rings or beeps and you hope they are on the line, and you have to make yourself scroll past the contact to keep from dialing or texting them. And you wonder if they feel the same as you and if they might be doing exactly what you are and are not doing??""
And again this time around ..I find myself feeling incomplete.. not whole inside. I could write for days, weeks, maybe a month, about all the things I miss, every little tiny memory that flits into my mind, recall snippets and details that bring a pang of longing and bittersweet nostalgia, and I couldn't begin to scratch the surface. I know it does not serve well to dwell and wallow in such things. I am probably only torturing myself and over analyzing things a bit too much trying to find answers and something that makes clear sense. I have to work through this in order to get past it and move along with life. There is too many elusive and vague answers to a lot of questions and not having a concrete solid answer is not something I am comfortable or satisfied with. All I have heard for weeks since I moved is something along the lines of how much better my life will be without them and oh just as well since you are there and they are over yonder...really where and how it is even their place to project that negative idea? Good for you that you feel that way.Do you want a treat and a pat on the head now? Another thing that really gets under my skin about this is when I try to find someone to talk to about this. I hear something similar to "They remind me of so and so and that situation and how they acted and treated you." And go bring up something and someone from the past that happened 10-15 years ago.. Perhaps yes a person's attitude, actions and behaviors may seem and appear to be the reminiscent or very similar to someone else's, and the situation may resemble one from the very long ago past, but let me sound off a huge reality check...sorry if caps lock offends or seems a bit over the top but seriously I have had quite more than enough of hearing this because it is very offensive and degrading towards me and the other person on the other end of this situation and it's a ginormous load of horse shite.
THEY ARE NOT THAT PERSON!! THE SITUATION AND PEOPLE INVOLVED ARE NOT THE EXACT SAME!! I AM NOT THE PERSON FROM YEARS AGO AND NEITHER ARE THEY "JUST LIKE" OR REMOTELY SIMILAR TO THAT PERSON YOU SO FREELY COMPARE THEM TO!! THIS IS NOT THE PAST AND WE ARE NOT REPEATING IT! WHERE IS IT YOUR RIGHT AND PLACE TO COMPARE OR JUDGE?!! DID YOU ASCEND TO BIENG A HIGHER POWER RECENTLY?! GO LOOK IN YOUR OWN BLACKENED MIRROR AND LOOK VERY CLOSELY AT YOUR OWN NEGATIVE FAULTS AND SHORTCOMINGS THAT YOU SO QUICKLY WANT TO SEE AND PROJECT ONTO SOMEONE ELSE, AND WHY IT IS THAT YOU WANT TO GO BLAME AND JUDGE AND COMPARE THEM!! THE ONLY REAL REASON YOU EVEN WANT TO DO THAT IS BECAUSE THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER INSIDE ABOUT YOURSELF AND IT IS A DISTRACTION AND A EXCUSE TO BLOW OFF AND TAKE AWAY FROM YOUR MISERABLE ISSUES AND PROBLEMS THAT YOU ARE NOT READY TO FACE DOWN OR CHANGE IN YOURSELF!! GO LOOK AT YOUR OWN ISSUES REALLY DAMNED HARD AND SEE WHERE AND HOW AND WHY IT REMINDS YOU OF YOURSELF, AND GO WORK ON FIXING AND CLEARING THAT UP THAT FIRST!! THE ONLY REASON YOU DO NOT LIKE THEM AND HAVE TO COMPARE AND JUDGE AND BRING UP CERTAIN THINGS IS BECAUSE THEIR SUPPOSED NEGATIVE TRAITS REMINDS YOU TOO MUCH OF YOURSELF AND WHAT YOU HAVE AND HAVE NOT DONE AND HOW YOU DID AND DID NOT ACT OR BEHAVE! THE POT DOES NOT GET TO CALL THE CAULDRON BLACK AND NO THAT IS NOT REMOTELY ACCEPTABLE OR FINE WITH ME! WHEN IT COMES TO THIS ONE PERSON, DO NOT GO THERE WITH ME AND MIND YOUR WORDS VERY WELL IN WHAT YOU SAY AND INSINUATE ABOUT THIS PERSON BECAUSE IF YOU INSULT AND DEGRADE THEM THEN YOU DO THE SAME TO ME AND I WILL NOT TOLERATE IT ANYMORE!
Yes I (and a certain guardian spirit) felt a strong need to shout that because there are a ridiculous amount of shat flinging people that keep giving me this attitude and keep bringing up the same thing over and over and I am extremely fed up with it!! We don't live in the past anymore and those people and situations from the past do not exist or hold any relevance to the here and now. That is water and blood under the bridge let it go and leave it be!! My guardian is very irritated, annoyed and agitated and it is very hard to keep that part of me in line else something dangerous and out of line was to occur. It's like trying to keep a very thin leash on a thrashing and snapping behemoth and the leash is unraveling very quickly!! I am going to go now..sorry everyone this wasn't a very cheerful post. I shall endeavor to do better next one I promise. Bright Blessings and have a great day!
This was what I was feeling and experiencing at that time period exactly a year ago...
I was " Feeling Incomplete" at that time as I had not heard from my friend in weeks, same as now, and the past status reads as follows...
""You miss someone that you love and care about with a fierce and unfulfilled longing that will not disappear no matter what you do to ease it and nothing you do or try to do will make it disappear. You can't talk to or see them anymore, you feel like a piece of you is missing without them, and someone took a huge chunk out of your life where they used to be, like you're missing a hand or some important part of you that should be there. You think too much about all the great things that was once there and all the things you shared with them and how close you once were, and now its gone. You can't go near their house without wishing you could go see them, can't leave your house and actually go anywhere that you usually go, because they were with you there at least once and it's like these places have some memory of them attached to it. Leaving the house to go anywhere else makes you feel like you are somehow leaving them behind and then you want to hurry and go back home because being away from them makes you feel like you shouldn't be anywhere else or spending time with anyone else and being too far away from them makes you have the strong urge to hurry and leave and go back home. And being around other people and trying to do anything with them just aggravates and annoys you.You can't sleep because all you think about is the 1001 things that somehow have their name and memory attached to it. You try to spend time with other people and do other things that have nothing to do with and have no connection or memory with said person and somehow they are still on your mind and you catch yourself talking about them or something and someone catches your attention and then you think of them. Other people are asking you about them, and mention the fact that you don't talk about them anymore ,and ask if you have you seen or talked to them? Your phone rings or beeps and you hope they are on the line, and you have to make yourself scroll past the contact to keep from dialing or texting them. And you wonder if they feel the same as you and if they might be doing exactly what you are and are not doing??""
And again this time around ..I find myself feeling incomplete.. not whole inside. I could write for days, weeks, maybe a month, about all the things I miss, every little tiny memory that flits into my mind, recall snippets and details that bring a pang of longing and bittersweet nostalgia, and I couldn't begin to scratch the surface. I know it does not serve well to dwell and wallow in such things. I am probably only torturing myself and over analyzing things a bit too much trying to find answers and something that makes clear sense. I have to work through this in order to get past it and move along with life. There is too many elusive and vague answers to a lot of questions and not having a concrete solid answer is not something I am comfortable or satisfied with. All I have heard for weeks since I moved is something along the lines of how much better my life will be without them and oh just as well since you are there and they are over yonder...really where and how it is even their place to project that negative idea? Good for you that you feel that way.Do you want a treat and a pat on the head now? Another thing that really gets under my skin about this is when I try to find someone to talk to about this. I hear something similar to "They remind me of so and so and that situation and how they acted and treated you." And go bring up something and someone from the past that happened 10-15 years ago.. Perhaps yes a person's attitude, actions and behaviors may seem and appear to be the reminiscent or very similar to someone else's, and the situation may resemble one from the very long ago past, but let me sound off a huge reality check...sorry if caps lock offends or seems a bit over the top but seriously I have had quite more than enough of hearing this because it is very offensive and degrading towards me and the other person on the other end of this situation and it's a ginormous load of horse shite.
THEY ARE NOT THAT PERSON!! THE SITUATION AND PEOPLE INVOLVED ARE NOT THE EXACT SAME!! I AM NOT THE PERSON FROM YEARS AGO AND NEITHER ARE THEY "JUST LIKE" OR REMOTELY SIMILAR TO THAT PERSON YOU SO FREELY COMPARE THEM TO!! THIS IS NOT THE PAST AND WE ARE NOT REPEATING IT! WHERE IS IT YOUR RIGHT AND PLACE TO COMPARE OR JUDGE?!! DID YOU ASCEND TO BIENG A HIGHER POWER RECENTLY?! GO LOOK IN YOUR OWN BLACKENED MIRROR AND LOOK VERY CLOSELY AT YOUR OWN NEGATIVE FAULTS AND SHORTCOMINGS THAT YOU SO QUICKLY WANT TO SEE AND PROJECT ONTO SOMEONE ELSE, AND WHY IT IS THAT YOU WANT TO GO BLAME AND JUDGE AND COMPARE THEM!! THE ONLY REAL REASON YOU EVEN WANT TO DO THAT IS BECAUSE THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER INSIDE ABOUT YOURSELF AND IT IS A DISTRACTION AND A EXCUSE TO BLOW OFF AND TAKE AWAY FROM YOUR MISERABLE ISSUES AND PROBLEMS THAT YOU ARE NOT READY TO FACE DOWN OR CHANGE IN YOURSELF!! GO LOOK AT YOUR OWN ISSUES REALLY DAMNED HARD AND SEE WHERE AND HOW AND WHY IT REMINDS YOU OF YOURSELF, AND GO WORK ON FIXING AND CLEARING THAT UP THAT FIRST!! THE ONLY REASON YOU DO NOT LIKE THEM AND HAVE TO COMPARE AND JUDGE AND BRING UP CERTAIN THINGS IS BECAUSE THEIR SUPPOSED NEGATIVE TRAITS REMINDS YOU TOO MUCH OF YOURSELF AND WHAT YOU HAVE AND HAVE NOT DONE AND HOW YOU DID AND DID NOT ACT OR BEHAVE! THE POT DOES NOT GET TO CALL THE CAULDRON BLACK AND NO THAT IS NOT REMOTELY ACCEPTABLE OR FINE WITH ME! WHEN IT COMES TO THIS ONE PERSON, DO NOT GO THERE WITH ME AND MIND YOUR WORDS VERY WELL IN WHAT YOU SAY AND INSINUATE ABOUT THIS PERSON BECAUSE IF YOU INSULT AND DEGRADE THEM THEN YOU DO THE SAME TO ME AND I WILL NOT TOLERATE IT ANYMORE!
Yes I (and a certain guardian spirit) felt a strong need to shout that because there are a ridiculous amount of shat flinging people that keep giving me this attitude and keep bringing up the same thing over and over and I am extremely fed up with it!! We don't live in the past anymore and those people and situations from the past do not exist or hold any relevance to the here and now. That is water and blood under the bridge let it go and leave it be!! My guardian is very irritated, annoyed and agitated and it is very hard to keep that part of me in line else something dangerous and out of line was to occur. It's like trying to keep a very thin leash on a thrashing and snapping behemoth and the leash is unraveling very quickly!! I am going to go now..sorry everyone this wasn't a very cheerful post. I shall endeavor to do better next one I promise. Bright Blessings and have a great day!
Monday, August 3, 2015
The Blue Moon report. 8-3-2015.
Hello and Bright Blessings! I hope everyone had a fantastic Full Moon weekend? I did not get a chance to do any spells or ritual work as I was not home, instead I ended up spending the weekend with family away from home. School is due to start this week so I had to get some errands done before this coming Wednesday, that is the first day of school here. This coming weekend I plan to be out buying the rest of the supplies and other things we are going to need and maybe then I can sit down and relax?
I have been working on my books again, and when school starts back that will clear up a lot of free time for me to finish and publish my second book, as one really cannot write with so much distraction and noise! In the meantime, as I am finishing my second book, feel free to take a trip down The Darkened Path, The Journey Begins , the first book in the series, which is available in both print and Kindle versions. I will confidently say, that anyone that can read past the first chapter shall find themselves hanging precariously off the cliff side at the end, hoping for salvation! I take a bit of pride in myself over that accomplishment, when I was a kid, I said one of the things I wanted to do was write and publish a book, and at that time I burned with a ambitious need for the entire the world to know who I was and what I was about! J.K. Rowling was a further inspiration, she overcame a lot of personal upheaval and look where she is now in life! While I realistically realize that I may never actually get remotely near that sort of fame and worldly status..it is definitely something to ponder about as I slave away on Microsoft Word. It is not too much to ask of the world to be able to live a simple life as a Pagan and a independent writer and have a decent amount of funds coming in every other month!
I also have plans to be getting back into my Amazon Associate work because I have severely neglected it, some inventory upgrades and store renovation will be done very soon! Before in the past I made rather skimpy and meager sales, so this year maybe I can revamp a few things and fire up the money making furnace! I have a very small web store located at The Darkened Path Website which displays my very personal and unique metaphysical items and recipes that I create and make by hand. I decided to make some of my strongest recipes for sale to the metaphysical community and the curious public. Every item listed is completely natural and contains no artificial or synthetic ingredients. The spell bags, jars, and other items are individually made by hand from my own workspace by request of the customer upon ordering. so if anyone sees something they need or want don't hesitate to drop me a line and let me see what kind of magic I can stir up for you!
I have to go for now my pets, a witches' work is never done and that definitely applies to this witch! Have a Blessed Day and I shall return soon!
I have been working on my books again, and when school starts back that will clear up a lot of free time for me to finish and publish my second book, as one really cannot write with so much distraction and noise! In the meantime, as I am finishing my second book, feel free to take a trip down The Darkened Path, The Journey Begins , the first book in the series, which is available in both print and Kindle versions. I will confidently say, that anyone that can read past the first chapter shall find themselves hanging precariously off the cliff side at the end, hoping for salvation! I take a bit of pride in myself over that accomplishment, when I was a kid, I said one of the things I wanted to do was write and publish a book, and at that time I burned with a ambitious need for the entire the world to know who I was and what I was about! J.K. Rowling was a further inspiration, she overcame a lot of personal upheaval and look where she is now in life! While I realistically realize that I may never actually get remotely near that sort of fame and worldly status..it is definitely something to ponder about as I slave away on Microsoft Word. It is not too much to ask of the world to be able to live a simple life as a Pagan and a independent writer and have a decent amount of funds coming in every other month!
I also have plans to be getting back into my Amazon Associate work because I have severely neglected it, some inventory upgrades and store renovation will be done very soon! Before in the past I made rather skimpy and meager sales, so this year maybe I can revamp a few things and fire up the money making furnace! I have a very small web store located at The Darkened Path Website which displays my very personal and unique metaphysical items and recipes that I create and make by hand. I decided to make some of my strongest recipes for sale to the metaphysical community and the curious public. Every item listed is completely natural and contains no artificial or synthetic ingredients. The spell bags, jars, and other items are individually made by hand from my own workspace by request of the customer upon ordering. so if anyone sees something they need or want don't hesitate to drop me a line and let me see what kind of magic I can stir up for you!
I have to go for now my pets, a witches' work is never done and that definitely applies to this witch! Have a Blessed Day and I shall return soon!
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