Hey everyone and Bright Blessings! How was you Samhain? Mine was pretty decent, I took my son on a 5 mile trip to trick or treat, and spent the rest of the night watching ghost hunting shows. I did not have any more spiritual visits or have anymore experiences the rest of the holiday, but I suppose that one dream about my deceased father was enough. Today I have resumed the task of getting rid of people, situations and relationships that no longer are good for me or serve a healthy or fulfilling purpose to my life..and I started that with changing my cell number today. It is now a totally private number and is going to be only given to a select few. There is one particular person in my life that just needs to disappear for good, this person is regrettably a immediate family member, and this person has absolutely no respect for my personal boundaries, does not have any respect for my privacy, and could care less about my emotional or spiritual well being or that of my family or our lives as a whole. Their extreme, out of control, narcissism, and other potential personality disorders, have finally gotten to the point where I have absolutely no desire to even see, speak to, or associate with them, and we have a very long 25 year history of going back and forward..with them trying to constantly force and steamroll themselves in our lives and me trying to just push them out and keep them away. I have moved out of state three different times and tried everything in my human power to attempt to get this person to let go of their choke hold of my life and just leave me alone for good. I'm done tolerating it, done with "having to" deal with it for whatever supposed necessary reasoning and just put up with and accept it because they are my "family", no more..today was the last day.
I could care less really if I don't talk to them anymore, they can never ever call me again or come to see me at all and I will be totally fine with that. I do not give a rats behind if we don't receive any of their "financial assistance" to help pay bills or do things for my kids, we never asked for it or insinuated that we needed or wanted any of their financial aide or anything that was theirs to begin with!! I do not want them coming to my home and just walking into my space like they live here and have every God and Goddess given right to just waltz in like they own the place and not even knock or bother to announce their arrival. Even the most lax of social standards considers that flat farking rude! I do not need to listen to 5 voicemail messages a day, and see 10 missed calls, even after I blocked their number from calling, detailing what they are threatening to do and what will happen if I do not return their calls right now, and what horrid consequences I will face if I do not do exactly what I am told to do and when and as they say to do. I am not moving back over to their county of residence,and they are not going to be allowed to claim me or my kid on their taxes this year, I have heard that scheme for 4 years in a row now, and I am fed up with hearing about it..That is not and ever will happen! This attitude and behavior from them has seriously gotten to the point where the law and a judge or attorney would consider it several forms of harassment or even possibly stalking. I do not and have never been crippled in my mind or body to the point where I need to be told when to pay bills, how to raise my kids, when to do this, how to do that, and what for and why according to their specifications!! And then there is the idea, according to them, of how that we would never have anything or have a life worth living at all if it was not for them "helping" us and being there for us, never mind the overstated fact that the only reason they are even part of our lives at all is because I tried to have enough decency and respect for that word "family" to even allow it to begin with.
Well today that load of shit got tossed out like waste in a old fashioned bed chamber pot. I am tired of hearing about how selfish and self centered I supposedly am, and how cold it is that I act and how I do not care about no one or nothing and how it is that I think about no one but myself, and a whole list of other negative and derogatory accusations and opinions..last time I checked it's called taking care of me and mine and minding my own business and making a point to not get involved in situations that are not good for us. So this coming New Moon, there is going to be a drastic change I will be initiating and a very new beginning for us will start very soon. I think it's time I got out the instructions and items needed for the "Seal Up Your Problems" jar spell again..it looks like I am about to be needing it. I'm sorry everyone this is not a cheerful post, I will write again with more positive and uplifting news very shortly. Have a good week and Blessed Be!
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