Wolf Moon January 23,2016

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I hope everyone is enjoying the Wolf Moon we are having! I am in a much better mood than I had been for last couple of days. I worked my prosperity and abundance spellwork, and also asked Madame Death for a favor, I hope she isn't too busy and decides to listen and show me some favor once again. I'm sure there are times when she just looks down at me and sighs,and goes on and does what I ask no matter how tired or overworked she might be. Even a spirit of change, transformation and death gets tired of being asked for assistance and sometimes I am quite sure that she just looks down here at us adoring and sometimes desperate devotees and say "OK I've had enough of your pestering go fix it yourselves!"
For this spell for abundance, I asked again for sales and abundance of royalties to come in for my books, and just maybe I might be favored for a book to film deal that I recently inquired about, and please oh please let me receive the funds from my tax return!! Last year the IRS decided to take my entire refund for self employment taxes that I owed,which really hurt my wallet, this year I hope that is not the case, and they graciously decide to let me have my money cause God and Goddess knows I am in dire need of it right about now!
While watching the candles burn down,I had to be careful, there is a cold wind blowing outside and the breeze coming from the cracked window caused the flames to bounce wildly around, but it also gave the flames a good kick of energy and my candles burnt really quickly. Trying to burn paper petitions in a breezy windowsill is tricky too, but the papers burnt to ash quick and no stray bits went flying out of the cauldon, so all was safely contained.  I took the ash outside and threw it off the balcony and let the wind spirits take it where it needs to go. While doing the petition inside, I also got that warm tingly sensation that usually signifies that some spiritual energy is present, the energy tonight felt good so whatever transpires over the next couple of weeks should go well. I am going to go for now, while using my spell oils I noticed the supply is getting low, so in the kitchen I am going, to fix up a new batch! I'll return soon to update on what happens after tonight.

Battling the Demon

Well today was my birthday, yay, I'm 33 now. Or 3,033, whichever way you want to look at it.  That's how old I feel anyways. Today was not a good day, yesterday's events became much more aggravating, when a family member came up here at 10am to ask for that tracphone back, I discovered that Narcissist demon never bothered to tell me that it was my aunts phone, and supposedly she has to take this phone back with her to a meeting and prove that it's her phone otherwise she will lose her benefits?? I find it rather odd that no one needed this phone all  months I have had it, until yesterday, after I changed the number?  The phone itself had been deactivated for months and I had to get codes for it to work again and have minutes put back on it, and oh suddenly they need it back? There was someone called me asking for my aunt and I said to call her sister because this wasn't her. I chose to not be involved in whatever mess they are in its not anything  to do with me personally. After that odd phone call asking for my aunt I changed the number, which resulted in a very pissed Narcissist demon that was fuming because she can't call me. I guess tomorrow I'm gonna have to call my mom and tell her to not call that number I just gave her last night. I hope whatever birthday gift she is sending me contains the means for me to have my regular cell turned back on.
 Im rather annoyed that now I have absolutely no phone at all, but at the same time now she has screwed herself out of any way to possibly get ahold of me. I decided to let slip a few words that I know very well will get back to Narcissist demon because the whole point of them sending another family member over here is to obtain Intel and info about me and what's going on with me. I'm sure my family member doesn't just come over here just for her orders to check on me but that's not the point, I never saw this particular family member very much until she got involved with the Narcissist demon. Not hard to put that equation together. So I let slip a few bugs of info that I know will be carried straight back to Narcissist demon.  How about a threat of a restraining order and how about what will happen if you don't back the fuck off and leave me alone!
So what did I do for my birthday? Not a lot, I ended up staying home because its 29 degrees and it was too blasted cold to go out, but I ordered myself another birthday present, courtesy of Narcissist demon, if I have to lose something I need because of other people's problems that have nothing to do with me,  then I will replace it with something else that I need and let that be her consequence for causing me to lose my phone because of her lies and deceit. It does no end well to play games and fuck with me because you will so wish you had not! Trying to deliberately cause me problems because you aren't getting your way is only going to hurt you worse in the end.
While I'm a bit annoyed I dont have a phone, I have to also look at this situation from the obvious spiritual message being conveyed,  I feel that God and Goddess and of course Saint Holy Death stepped in and intervened, and said "She is not going to call and torture you and we will  make this right and take away her means of doing so." So let her sit there and think she has done something mean and spiteful just to hurt and piss me off, she hasn't done anything except hurt herself! She has been blaming her form of God, (shes a Baptist) and everyone for her problems and everything that's happened to her, and doing her damndest to hurt and abuse everyone she perceives as even remotely responsible for her misery, never mind the things she has deliberately said and done to bring it down on her own head. She has been digging her own hole down to the underworld and eventually she's gonna slip and fall headfirst into it.
One of the things that eats at her the worst, is the death of her only son, whom was my dad, three years ago, and what and how it is that she knows for a fact that it was partially from her own actions and behavior during the last months of his life, and possibly during his whole lifetime, that helped bring that event about. I clearly remember one day she called me and point blank said she wished he would hurry and die so she wouldnt have to fool with him anymore, and then a few days later he passed away. She made a huge show of her ass about the entire funeral, I was totally and deliberately left out of any of the arrangements, she wanted full control of everything, there were a lot of people she hurt and treated very poorly over his passing and funeral, a lot of people were very angry, disgusted, and abhorred, at how she acted, she totally disregarded any of his final wishes and made a grandiose spectacular scene of his funeral, because it was what she wanted, nevermind he asked to be cremated, and now everyone else is to blame for why  and how it is that he is dead. Never mind anything she done and said to help contribute to his demise. Never mind he was a alcoholic and mentally unstable most of his life, and brought a lot of his own health issues on himself.
I will not forget for a very long time how she treated me over him, as if I was entirely responsible and to blame for his problems and why it was he was never around when I was a kid, as if none of that were to happen if it wasn't for me? Her telling me I was not my dad's kid right after his funeral and I never had any say or business being involved since I never cared to begin with, was my breaking point with her.  Now shes taking her madness out on me. In her cracked mind all of her problems are caused by the fact I live and breathe.  Her hatred of me started the day I was born, as soon after she took out a life insurance policy on me worth several thousands, thinking if I were to die from my prematurity, there went money in her bank. There was no regards to whether or not I lived, she just saw how me being dead would benefit her. Every day I've been alive and breathing is a direct defiance of her authority and it makes her crazy because she isn't getting her way. That's what kind of monster she is.
If she is haunted by her son and he sits on the foot of her bed and follows her around like a rattling spectre I would not be surprised. She has become literally obsessed with her guilt and grief and denial over everything to do with him, and its destroying her and her relationships with everyone around her, add in her twisted and highly disturbing Narcissist complex, and you have a walking talking living demonic monster. The only way I know of to get rid of stuff like that is banishment, exorcism, and other such things but that doesn't work too well on the living, as alot of those types of rituals and spell workings revolve around spiritual matters instead of the living world. I need something that will last a good while or perhaps permanently. I will go for now I just noticed that I'm sitting here typing a book! I will be back soon and Bright Blessings to all!

Death of a Narcissist.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! How has everyone's week been? Mine has been somewhat aggravating. So everyone knows that I have no cable or phone service correct? That means no house phone either. I deliberately did not pay the ridiculously expensive bill on time and they turned it off, and it has been off since right after xmas holiday. If they want to really charge me that much for basic services and jack up my bill higher, then they can stick their services where the sun don't shine! Anyways, this might be a blessing in disguise, for the Narcissist monster can't call me 50 times a week...or so I thought. Today my tracphone rang and guess who it was? Leaving a  snarky message about "you need to call me immediately there is something wrong with your phone!" Excuse you?! No one orders or demands of me to call them period! If I want to call you I know the number and I will do so when I damn feel like it! There aint anything wrong with my phone, except that it's turned off and unplugged from the damn router box so no calls can still come through. Apparently even if I have no service here that does not mean that I cannot receive incoming calls? I fixed both problems by unplugging the entire router from the cables and the wall. Then I decided to change the tracphone number considering someone else from the family that got sent up here by the Narcissist, to check on me on Tuesday, was so informative and decided to go ahead and tell them that my other phone works. This makes the second time I have had to change a phone number now. I have been so fed up with this situation that I am seriously considering a call to law enforcement and have someone to go have a chat with said Narcissist monster, and let them explain that repeatedly calling and leaving messages like that is not advisable and what kind of consequences could result if they don't shut up and stay away from me and stay out of mine and my child's lives! The law getting involved is the last resort and something I'd rather not have to do, but obviously there's people that do not want to get the point or understand what "leave me alone" means.

On a much brighter note, yesterday I ordered some new spell supplies, its my belated birthday present, some nice bottles of spell oil from a reputable supplier. Normally I make my own, however the witch at White Magic Alchemy has some fantastic supplies, and they are well worth the extra money spent! Her "powerful immediate money drawing" oil is divine, it works every time I use it. I also ordered some of her "prosperity" and "fortuna" oils that I am sure will compliment the original oil very nicely! If I ever need something extra special aside from my own stuff then I know where to go find it. The Friday of January 22nd is the day for money spells as it is the "Friday before a full moon" day of which is best for money and love spells. Although if the situation with Narcissist monster doesn't come to an end or some resolution soon, I may very well be digging out the banishing supplies instead.  The Seal Up Your Problems jar spell that I made back in November for the exact purpose of getting rid of the Narcissist issues has not manifested exactly like I asked for, so maybe I either need to recharge it or try something else a bit stronger? I have blocked numbers, changed my numbers twice, and even refused to have my house phone reconnected, and when I don't answer the phone, someone comes up here to "check on me". I was not aware that I was an invalid or a child that needs constant supervision and monitoring? Pissing this witch off the wrong way will result in you becoming more worse off than just being transfigured into a toad! Speaking of toads, Lucan the dragon doesn't like toads, they are loud and annoying and when he happens to step on them they will make a horrid sqeak sound and squish into his foot like something slimy, and scraping a mashed toad off your foot pad and toes isn't pretty or fun. I just made myself laugh trying to visualize that!  Perhaps I just might turn the Narcissist monster into a toad with a lame leg, and when it croaks too loud and then tries to  crawl away, there shall be no more annoying toadie to worry about, because then he will mash it on purpose just to get it to hush up, never mind if its yucky to clean later. No, dragons are sometimes not the sweetest creatures, if you annoy one bad enough you will end up a crispy critter or a twitching toadie pancake. He also despises the Narcissist monster with a revulsion that makes his skin crawl and it takes a lot of patience and will on my end to keep him from acting on what would be considered homicidal tendencies. Never mind pissing off the witch, how about we don't piss off the dragon eh? But if people want to be incinerated to crispy bits or made into toadie mash then oh well have at it then!

January 9,2016 New Moon

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I hope you all had a nice new moon night? I got time alone to do my usual spell work and it seemed to go well. I had a downturn of the nights events however, as while I was eating coconut glazed cashews, I broke the entire tip end off my right upper canine! I guess the first order of business for this year is a expensive dentist visit! I have been putting off the dental work for a good while, as all the work I would need done runs in the thousands, and who has that kind of funds to just hand over? I have to say if I won a sizeable chunk of that one and a half billion powerball lottery, that would be great to have right now!  Wishful ideas won't get me too far though, I need to focus on more concrete and obtainable goals. Such as finishing the short story that I am working on, and the second installment of my memoir, and hopefully passing that transcriptionist exam! I have as shot at a decent paying full time salary, if I can successfully pass that demanding and rigorous exam. Transcription work was originally something I was not interested in, however the amount of messages suddenly flooding my inbox and promotional folders suggests that this might be a divine message pointing me into a new career path. When you suddenly begin seeing repeated messages like that it is best to at least investigate why, as sometimes those can be messages from Higher Powers that be, trying to get your attention.
I decided to rework a spell jar of mine, as I have not been getting the results I asked for, and upon consultation of my divination tools, it was revealed that redoing the spell would be a wise move. So in the kitchen I went, creating a new candle, and carefully reconstructing and tweaking the contents of the jar.  Seeing as Mercury is in retrograde, the redoing of old projects and etc is favorable. Hopefully results will manifest in a few weeks, however slowly, since we are in Mercury retrograde until January 25th. The retrograde phase will not lift entirely until the first week of February. I also charged up my money bags and did a little abundance spell I recently learned, where you write a real check to yourself, in  a request to powers of wealth and abundance to pay out or deliver the amount you're asking for to be paid in full. The abundance spell is done on the new moon, and the check itself is burnt on the following full moon, to activate the spell. I tried this spell during Xmas and it brought in a good result. If you do not have personal checks of your own, you can write one out on a piece of quality paper, in the image of what a bank check looks like, and use that instead. The key to the check spell working, is that you are to put it away and forget about it until the full moon, just set yourself a reminder for the full moon night to burn the paper. This is going to be a short post, I have a ton of other work to do, and the witch's work is never done! Blessed Be to all, and I will return soon!

New Year 1-1-2016

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings and Happy New Year! I hope everyone starts their year in a fantastic way. I have utilized my son's Android tablet and WiFi signal to type this post with, so I'm starting the year learning to use newer technology.  I was never the type that really got into tech toys but I think it might be time that I learned a few new tricks! Right this minute, I have no cell service, no cable or internet service either until I get the bills paid. Mercury retrograde is smacking me hard and it hasn't officially started yet! I just hope that nothing else happens the rest of the month because this is quite enough! Actually this retrograde might be the learning to adapt phase I needed since I'm sitting here working with my son's complicated gadgetry. My 33rd birthday is looming and technology has zoomed way ahead of me, and I admit to being somewhat slow when it comes to tinkering with gadgets. I didn't have my first cell phone until I was 21, if that is any indication of how behind the times I am!  I guess one of my new years resolutions is to change that outdated mode of how I get things done!
Now onto more witchy topics. The next new moon comes on January 9th and while normally it is the time to begin new endeavors, the mecury retrograde will have begun four days prior. So I will say that it will be better to go back to projects you have not yet finished or put on hold, and resume working on those for this month. Publishing and ideas related to written work seems to be a highlighted theme also for this new moon. Seeing as this retrograde is mostly going to be in the sign of Capricorn, I guess I have to be extra careful and pay attention to my work, just last night, I was working on a short story that I need to finish. Hopefully it will be done and ready to publish soon. Perhaps I might utilize this interesting little tablet to further my writing career this year! I am going to go for now, this toy needs to charge for a bit. I will return as soon as I can! Blessed Be to all!