Well today was my birthday, yay, I'm 33 now. Or 3,033, whichever way you want to look at it. That's how old I feel anyways. Today was not a good day, yesterday's events became much more aggravating, when a family member came up here at 10am to ask for that tracphone back, I discovered that Narcissist demon never bothered to tell me that it was my aunts phone, and supposedly she has to take this phone back with her to a meeting and prove that it's her phone otherwise she will lose her benefits?? I find it rather odd that no one needed this phone all months I have had it, until yesterday, after I changed the number? The phone itself had been deactivated for months and I had to get codes for it to work again and have minutes put back on it, and oh suddenly they need it back? There was someone called me asking for my aunt and I said to call her sister because this wasn't her. I chose to not be involved in whatever mess they are in its not anything to do with me personally. After that odd phone call asking for my aunt I changed the number, which resulted in a very pissed Narcissist demon that was fuming because she can't call me. I guess tomorrow I'm gonna have to call my mom and tell her to not call that number I just gave her last night. I hope whatever birthday gift she is sending me contains the means for me to have my regular cell turned back on.
Im rather annoyed that now I have absolutely no phone at all, but at the same time now she has screwed herself out of any way to possibly get ahold of me. I decided to let slip a few words that I know very well will get back to Narcissist demon because the whole point of them sending another family member over here is to obtain Intel and info about me and what's going on with me. I'm sure my family member doesn't just come over here just for her orders to check on me but that's not the point, I never saw this particular family member very much until she got involved with the Narcissist demon. Not hard to put that equation together. So I let slip a few bugs of info that I know will be carried straight back to Narcissist demon. How about a threat of a restraining order and how about what will happen if you don't back the fuck off and leave me alone!
So what did I do for my birthday? Not a lot, I ended up staying home because its 29 degrees and it was too blasted cold to go out, but I ordered myself another birthday present, courtesy of Narcissist demon, if I have to lose something I need because of other people's problems that have nothing to do with me, then I will replace it with something else that I need and let that be her consequence for causing me to lose my phone because of her lies and deceit. It does no end well to play games and fuck with me because you will so wish you had not! Trying to deliberately cause me problems because you aren't getting your way is only going to hurt you worse in the end.
While I'm a bit annoyed I dont have a phone, I have to also look at this situation from the obvious spiritual message being conveyed, I feel that God and Goddess and of course Saint Holy Death stepped in and intervened, and said "She is not going to call and torture you and we will make this right and take away her means of doing so." So let her sit there and think she has done something mean and spiteful just to hurt and piss me off, she hasn't done anything except hurt herself! She has been blaming her form of God, (shes a Baptist) and everyone for her problems and everything that's happened to her, and doing her damndest to hurt and abuse everyone she perceives as even remotely responsible for her misery, never mind the things she has deliberately said and done to bring it down on her own head. She has been digging her own hole down to the underworld and eventually she's gonna slip and fall headfirst into it.
One of the things that eats at her the worst, is the death of her only son, whom was my dad, three years ago, and what and how it is that she knows for a fact that it was partially from her own actions and behavior during the last months of his life, and possibly during his whole lifetime, that helped bring that event about. I clearly remember one day she called me and point blank said she wished he would hurry and die so she wouldnt have to fool with him anymore, and then a few days later he passed away. She made a huge show of her ass about the entire funeral, I was totally and deliberately left out of any of the arrangements, she wanted full control of everything, there were a lot of people she hurt and treated very poorly over his passing and funeral, a lot of people were very angry, disgusted, and abhorred, at how she acted, she totally disregarded any of his final wishes and made a grandiose spectacular scene of his funeral, because it was what she wanted, nevermind he asked to be cremated, and now everyone else is to blame for why and how it is that he is dead. Never mind anything she done and said to help contribute to his demise. Never mind he was a alcoholic and mentally unstable most of his life, and brought a lot of his own health issues on himself.
I will not forget for a very long time how she treated me over him, as if I was entirely responsible and to blame for his problems and why it was he was never around when I was a kid, as if none of that were to happen if it wasn't for me? Her telling me I was not my dad's kid right after his funeral and I never had any say or business being involved since I never cared to begin with, was my breaking point with her. Now shes taking her madness out on me. In her cracked mind all of her problems are caused by the fact I live and breathe. Her hatred of me started the day I was born, as soon after she took out a life insurance policy on me worth several thousands, thinking if I were to die from my prematurity, there went money in her bank. There was no regards to whether or not I lived, she just saw how me being dead would benefit her. Every day I've been alive and breathing is a direct defiance of her authority and it makes her crazy because she isn't getting her way. That's what kind of monster she is.
If she is haunted by her son and he sits on the foot of her bed and follows her around like a rattling spectre I would not be surprised. She has become literally obsessed with her guilt and grief and denial over everything to do with him, and its destroying her and her relationships with everyone around her, add in her twisted and highly disturbing Narcissist complex, and you have a walking talking living demonic monster. The only way I know of to get rid of stuff like that is banishment, exorcism, and other such things but that doesn't work too well on the living, as alot of those types of rituals and spell workings revolve around spiritual matters instead of the living world. I need something that will last a good while or perhaps permanently. I will go for now I just noticed that I'm sitting here typing a book! I will be back soon and Bright Blessings to all!
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