October 27, 2013

Samhain is coming. This year I am buying my son his Halloween candy and I think I am going to keep him inside with me and have a quiet celebration at home. I don't really feel like wandering the streets in 30 degree weather going door to door. I have a lot of important and crucial ideas on my mind that have been brewing harshly for weeks and I am about to see a final conclusion to it all come this Monday the 28th. The situation with the neighbors become a nasty all out war, resulting in my friend facing charges of utter complete BS that may possibly result in him being sent away for awhile. This makes me very upset on a lot of levels but I am trying hard to keep my temper in check and managing the best I know how. This has been coming for awhile and it has been steadily brewing into this boiling over pot of shit for months now. Yes, one of those charges he may actually be punished for because he actually committed the offense, the other is a load of technicality laced crap that someone has been trying to push into becoming a reality for months. I have seen and heard and dealt with more than enough of this mess and I am royally fed up. Quite honestly if he has to be sent off for a whole month or longer then I personally hope that the other person involved is sent away too and the other initial instigator to the entire mess vanishes like a bad wind.  Something must be done to permanently end the entire situation once and for all, for the betterment of all of our peace of mind and sanity. I am tired of watching my friend suffer and go through more than his share of tribulation and trials. The emotional and physical strain placed on all of us is at the snapping point. I will be miserable and depressed if by chance he is sent off but in a way perhaps this is a crucial part of the changes that need to take place since he is also a minor part of some of the problems, if only by being involved in the situation and unwittingly contributing a small portion of them. I am being forced to accept that some things are not within my control or ability to handle, however I am still going to ask that Higher Powers of the Laws of our world be fair and honest for all involved especially for his sake because if you look at the technical pieces of this puzzle the only thing he is really "guilty " of is trying to do what was right to begin with, trying to help people that needed help, and be a decent  person for someone that needs it very badly, and being dragged in a ever worsening situation that basically backfired in his face. The other party involved in this is really more at fault, for not enforcing or doing the right things as they have been instructed to do many times by other officials and people of higher power, and not taking the vital steps needed to actually correct certain behaviors and attitudes and not getting rid of the original people that were causing the problems to start with.  Later on Monday, or this week, we shall see what happens with that.

   I will not be surprised if by chance I am asked to step in and offer my testimony or opinion into this mess , thus far I have been mostly overlooked as being unimportant and just in between the two problems because I just happen to live smack beside my neighbor and I am friends with the other person being hauled to court. would I possibly incriminate myself in order to defend what I saw was right and fair for others? That depends on the charges laid against me and even then there is no reliable proof  I was or am involved aside from hearsay. I know plenty about the situation on both sides of it but there's also things I don't know because I chose to not be directly involved or be a part of anything I knew would get me cast blame or guilt on, and even then it would have still been pinned on the original guilty party for involving others into their dramas and trying to cause others misery and suffering and pointing fingers of blame or guilt on others in order to take the heat off of themselves. The cops, courts, and other legal officials know this so they have eliminated all others from the equation and are focusing on the people that are directly and actively involved.  If I do not have to be involved or brought into this mess then I see no reason to step in and make it my issue unless I see or hear something that is grossly wrong or unfair or if I am asked by a higher official to be giving my side of the story. for now my readers, I have to go, I need some sleep and to recharge before I gird my emotional fortitude to face what I know is coming...