Yesterday I got a call from a ex- coworker from my previous job. He is telling me there is this friend of his that has a small baby , that needs a emergency place to bunk until he can move her in with him in a couple of weeks. So starting later today, I shall be babysitting the baby while mom is at work during the day, I have a strong hunch that there is more to this story than I am being told about but I will find out more details later today.. something does not sit right with me about why exactly she is suddenly running away from a ex boyfriend and having to move on a spur of a minute decision. I know my coworker too well, he has this annoying habit for rescuing supposed damsels in distress and then finding himself in a not so appealing situation because of them, and he has this habit for having not so innocent intentions with these females at times. His manners and intentions towards females are occasionally not very gentlemanly or polite and to him any "opportunity" is fair game. I also have the suspicion that he is hoping someone will take on his little problem until he figures out how to fix it himself. I will be nice and allow her to stay with me, and I will gladly take on the small baby, its not the child's fault its mother is in a mess. I am being paid a fee to watch the baby and for allowing her room and board, and I shall be a accommodating hostess, however, I do not believe in freeloaders no matter their situation or circumstances, the woman is a adult so therefore it is not like she cannot be responsible for herself. Like I said.. there's more to this little story than I am being told and the situation is not all that it appears to be. I do very much hope for their sakes that the just released from jail, potentially dangerous, ex boyfriend does not find out where she is and what she is doing until she is at least gone from my house, I have no patience for crazy exes and bad relationship situations and if he by chance shows up at my home acting up and misbehaving himself, I can just as well have him escorted back to jail. My receptive antennae are going to be wired on high alert the whole time she is going to be here and I'm going to be watching for any sign or sense of a possible problem. Perhaps I may be being too sensitive and seeing more than is there but I feel like I am not wrong in my general perceptions of the developing situation.
The New Moon is coming November 3rd, it is also a Total Solar Eclipse in the astrological sign of Scorpio. This is a great time to manifest new beginnings in one's life and plant seeds of changes that we want to see come to fruition for the next six months time, for them to mature and grow into desired results. I am going to begin campaigning the sales of my book again, and try to finish the other book that will be it's companion. The work on that has been slow, as I have been scrambling to get the funds to pay my outstanding household bills, so finding the time to write a page or ten has not been the top of my to- do list lately. I'm getting a bit bummed out over the fact that customers are visiting my sales pages for my Amazon sites and looking at the offerings, but there is still no sales. Christmas holiday shopping is coming so I am hoping for a rise in royalties and sales soon. I am going to do a petition for financial help for myself for this New Moon and use the proof copy of my book as a focal point and centerpiece for the working. I am literally down to $0.00 in my bank account and my credit account and this is the first ever time I have ever been completely broke.
Onto the ongoing matter of the situation between myself, my neighbor, and my best friend..I discovered the reasons why he is being unjustly charged, and it verily pisses me off. I know for a absolute fact this is a hatched up plot of theirs to ruin his life for the worst and if he cannot get ahold of a decent and reasonably priced lawyer very soon it just may well ruin his life. That will be another matter I shall be sending a petition out for as it is going to be very hard for him to afford the sort of fees to get himself a reliable and trustworthy defense against his accusers' claims. I also heard some very nasty revelations about the situation that makes me look at my neighbor in a disgusted shame. The person in the neighbor's house that originally started all of this has developed a odd and suddenly curious interest in trying to talk to me or have my attention of which I want no part of at all because quite honestly it gives me the strong vibe that I need to back away and go the opposite direction as fast as possible, and avoid all contact like its the worst of plagues, there is just a highly aware and creepy sensation that I am talking to a very dangerous person that is asking some strange questions and bringing up nosy subjects out of the thin air. It is very possible I will be asked or called on to vouch for and help defend my best friend of which I have no problem with doing so. Things between me and him have become so strained and complicated that now we cannot really even see each other anywhere without someone possibly watching or paying attention. If he so much as steps a toe that is perceivably out of line for any reason he could be sent away until his court hearing. Needless to say, his nerves are basically shot to hell and he is going through extreme stress and strong mood swings. So in order to protect him I have to stay away and act like we have parted ways and we have no contact or association. I do not know how this is going to affect our friendship or what will end up happening later, how to have any type of relationship under so much difficulty? I am having a hard time having to accept things as they are in the current moment, we went from being very close and things were going very well, but since the last couple of months things have slowly but surely went down the drain to the point to where all we basically have now is verbal contact. Most people I know would have done called everything quits and moved on and went on with their lives. However me and him are not everyone else. We have something special and enduring and strong that thus far not even the hardest of hits has managed to break it, and Goddess willing, it will stay that way. I am going to have to go. A new day has dawned and i am still sitting here, I have to get my son up for school, and finish the chores to be done before my guest gets here. The posts may become short or not updated regularly for the next couple of weeks, as taking care of a 5 month old baby leaves very little time or energy to do much else. To all my readers, Blessed Be!
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