My New Year's Resolution Goal.

 This post is going to be a bit depressing and maybe a bit too black and white, but right now that is how things are for me at the current moment and I am not in a position to be too dreamy or unrealistic and look at things with a rose tinted viewpoint. My New Year's resolutions are to finally have a true life partner, and to finally be financially secure and debt free by end of 2014. What do I want and need from this life partner? Someone who can be beside me through everything and help me lead a mature, responsible, stable home and family life and have real love in his heart and soul for us, and whatever else we might share, and not back out or turn away. Someone who can stand behind me and support me emotionally and psychologically in my goals and decisions no matter if he disagrees or agrees. Someone who can stand and fight for and defend what we have and share, and be strong and resilient when the days come that I have taken on more than I should and I just cant do things on my own. Someone I can really truly bond with on all those important levels that can really understand and knows the real me inside and out, that can feel what I feel and see what I see and know who I am and who I am not, and not try to make me into something or someone I am not because that is what he wants of me. I have never truly had this one thing happen for me and All Higher Powers know that this is what I wish for most. I think I may already have this type of person in my life but I have not exactly been told or shown a rock solid clarified "yes" or "no" yet so I am waiting to see how that might or might not end up. The status of that situation is somewhat complicated and there are some issues to work out on both of our ends before anything can move forward or become anything more than what it currently is at the moment. 

For every great positive wonderful thing happening in that situation there are just as many if not more, unresolved and unstable issues that need to be fixed and worked around before anything can truly blossom into something even remotely permanent or semi permanent. I have to be content with what is there or have nothing. One major slip up or damaging problem could send it all down the drain whether or not that might be what we would want and I fear that possibility with a passion because that is not what I want to see happen. I have to leave this one with the God and Goddess and allow it to be what it will or will not be. No matter what my heart wants, needs, or desires or no matter what he may or may not think or feel, or what he may or may not want to see for us, that does not mean either of us will actually have or obtain it exactly as we might wish for.     

 

The other resolution? I just want this weight of constant financial strife and burden to lighten up, I'm sick and tired of struggling dollar to dime just to get by and having to always rely on others in some way to keep helping me pay bills and keep me and my little family afloat because that is not who I am inside. I was not raised to be dependent and overly reliant on anyone unless I couldn't avoid it!  I'm tired of getting a job and then having to give it up for what reason or another and it be weeks and months before something else comes along. I have not had a 40 hour a week steady job for 4 months now and that is starting to grind hard on me. I am currently a single parent and head of house and sole provider to everything that comes and goes here. As of this writing I am literally down to the change in my wallet broke. I'm in a moderate amount of debt, a lot more than I ever should have been to start with, most of that debt has been incurred for the fact I was trying to get myself ahead and do the right things for my life and I fell behind because I couldn't keep it up myself anymore. Most of the debt is overdue bills, credit payments, and a small schooling tuition, that I have to have  that tuition paid and my exams done before March 2014 or they will cancel my enrollment and I will not get my certificate and the stressful part of that is I have a 94%  average in my field of study and I am set to have a Honors Certificate. The total of my debts adds up to over $1000.00 and that is a huge weight on my mind. If I can swing everything until late January and my taxes come in time in February I just might be able to save myself a little bit. Sometime this year I want to move into a nicer place and a better neighborhood, the place I live now is slowly going to the dumps and honestly I hate living by the governments rules in a place that is not mine yet I am still responsible for it and they can tell me how to live and what I can and cannot do or have in my life, while I live in their apartments. I want this new home of mine that I want so badly, to have my name on it either as mine or a co signed deal and I have some rights and say over it and I can be free to do and be as I will and as I please in my own home. This is what I want to see happen this year for me. I will find a way and I have plenty of will, I just need to find a more concrete  and reliable way to help make it happen. I have a few side jobs floating me along and I am "Self Employed" but its only making me a dollar or two enough to get me by. Jobs in my county are very scarce. There is also the set back that I am visually impaired to where I cannot obtain a driver's license and that is sometimes a challenge. Public transport is sometimes not very accommodating and they charge ridiculous fees to get you point A to point B. Even magical practice, working a spell and fixing a charm, asking for divine assistance will not always fix everything and will only get you so far. Even I am not fool enough to believe that The God and Goddess will always favor me on just anything and will only assist me if they believe it will be best for me as a whole. Cash cannot be conjured from thin air on a whim and Goddess knows if that were possible we would have no worries! One thing I can do for myself right now is set up a massive Unblocking Spell and maybe add some Reversal and Banishment elements to it, to try and ease some of my worries and issues on every aspect of my current situations and ask and petition that some of them be removed and dynamited out of my way so I can move forward and achieve better things.    I hope everyone has a great New Year holiday and Blessed Be to all! 

A New Moon on New Year's Night!

Upon checking my calendar, I saw there is in fact going to be a New Moon on New Year's night, in the astrological sign of Capricorn. The year starts with a whopping 5 planets in Capricorn, so yes we steadfast achievers and workaholics will have a lot of chutzpah to start the year with. Hopefully yours truly here ,born Jan 18th, will have a great start to the New Year and something worth celebrating in someway or another. What I see as most important right now is that Venus the Love planet will be in retrograde until January 31st. Matters of love may not be so wonderful and this will be a time to scrutinize current relationships, and hash over relationship issues from the past and take a strong look at the relationships that we are currently in, to see whether or not things will make the cut. Some of us might even decide to back off a current relationship or go back to a previous one to see if there's still a reason or two to keep it alive or just throw dirt on it and walk away from it. I say don't go looking at the past, there is a reason that a past love is no longer with you and there is no reason to go back and reconsider or sit there and wonder what if. The past does not belong in the present or the future unless there is something to learn from it, otherwise, let it go and move forward. Also, don't take things from a past relationship and try to apply it to a current one, as in making comparisons, however if you see a pattern forming in this relationship that is similar from the last relationship, it might be time to make some serious changes. Love is on the back burner this month, or at the very least, given a careful and cautious eye, this is not a time to be a fool and rush into a new love interest, it might backfire in our faces. For those of us that are in a relationship now is a good time to work out some knots and go over things with a fine tooth comb, weeding out undesirable behaviors and patterns in order to make room for better and more fulfilling habits and create stronger bonds that are built to last.  It's a wonderful time to start the new year by getting rid of baggage and problems of all kinds that are possibly still plaguing us as this year comes to  a end. It is a time to begin something special on those New Year's resolutions lists we all have. Mine is to end these problematic financial issues of mine and begin a new job, and to find a way to increase my financial status. I guess the other issues concerning my lack of a long term commitment are just going to have to take a back seat and I have to be uncharacteristically patient and wait it out some more, isn't like I haven't done more than enough of that so a little while longer surely won't hurt anything?  Sometimes you have to put aside something you really truly want, in order to have other things you also need just as much. Tomorrow I have to babysit, it's a few dollars I earn during the week. so I am going to cut this page a bit short so I can finish the rest of my work around the house before the baby comes in the morning. Blessed Be everyone!

Full Moon December 17, 2013

Tonight is the Full Moon and I am done with my work, I charged up all of my charm bags and my scrying mirror, crystal ball, pendulum, and wand were set out in the moonlight to get a power boost. This action was rewarded by the warm, tingly, acutely aware sensation indicating to me that this was a approved upon gesture by whomever Spirit(s) was my audience. Signs of spiritual manifestation sometimes include physical sensations such as tingling, hot/cool flashes, a heightened spike of sensory awareness and you feel like you are jolted wide awake. It starts at the top of my head and shoots down my back and through my arms and slips down towards my feet.  I got to see the moon rise smack center in line with my altar table and everything was bathed in strong light this time. Usually the moon rises farther off in the sky and the light slants off to the right side of my table and I have to take items outside to get a good beam of light to shine on anything. I also laid out my Avon sales brochures that are current on my altar and asked for those to be blessed, in the hopes that I have some sales pretty soon. I am self employed, I have my hands and brain in a lot of little side jobs , along with being a aspiring independent author, and working on some online ideas, going back into Avon sales again is actually a old standby for me as I have sold their products on and off for three years now. I am hoping tomorrow their customer service sector will finally allow me to open up my online store site and I can get some orders in place, due to the holidays coming and some changes in their systems they now make us wait 5 business days before opening a new online account and this is very annoying! We cannot place orders for 5 whole days and this sets us seriously behind on our selling schedules! What if we had a pile of orders to get placed and couldn't register online? That is 5 days of waiting to get our work done unless you want to place orders over the phone and I assure you that is the most tedious and time consuming process ever and it is easy to get orders messed up that way. If the weather permits, tomorrow I am going out to distribute my few catalogs door to door in town and around the neighborhood.

   Now onto other witchy subjects. I have discovered my kitten can see things in my house, that to we humans are usually invisible, as his attention has been noticed to focus on a spot in a room and he will watch intently for a little while and act as if whatever or whomever is there is acutely interesting, I cannot see or feel it or them but he does. His pupils dilate and his ears perk straight out and he gets really still, and I have watched him chase his invisible "prey" through the house and go insane trying to catch it, his tail fluffed out and back arched like he is trying to attack it. He meows constantly trying to get someone to notice. Smokey is a vocal type and he makes his voice heard very loudly and insistently until you pay him attention.  I will get him a pentacle charm and a collar when he is big enough to actually wear it without it falling off or becoming tangled in something, he is only 10 weeks old and is still gangly and slender. Tonight I am going to make a bracelet designed to draw money and business to me, it will have Malachite and Tiger Eye gemstone chips and various little charms representing wealth and prosperity. I might make it a mini charm bag on a bracelet. I will post a picture on here when  finish it.  for now , I'm having to go because i need to get to bed, here it is 11:45pm. Goodnight and Blessed Be!

Friday 13th 2013

Today is Friday December 13, 2013. So for you all that are superstitious I say take your cautionary anti bad luck measures. However, for many of us that see the number 13 as a auspicious and perhaps magickal number, Friday the 13th and Friday in general is a good time for love spells. you can also do money spells, and protection spells and it is also 4 days until the Full Moon so many of us Pagans will be focusing on whatever working or spell we will be working on this weekend. The winter solstice is also coming and we will be doing something to prepare for that event too. I will be stringing up my Yule decorations, putting up the tree, and wrapping gifts and setting up a small table for candles and décor. As for me, I might be working on a small healing and blessing spell this weekend, for my horrendous cold I have right now. It's on the verge of becoming the flu and the only reason I am sitting here typing is mostly because I cannot sleep due to the persistent clogging of my swollen sinuses. I woke up this morning and my cheekbones, under my eyes, and nose were noticeably puffy and my face was itchy and dry. The worst part for me is how it makes me worn out tired and I can't really concentrate on anything and I don't want to eat. Most of what I have done for the last few days is sleep and stay hydrated and make myself eat food I cannot taste or smell right. Even us magically inclined folk become ill and are not immune to physical ailments from time to time, although I have to say it is a rare occasion for me to come down with anything. (Knock on wood three times!) I will be lighting light blue and white candles for healing and cleansing, and doing a Ritual Cleansing of my house today as soon as I get the cold/ flu medicine flowing in my system, and brewing up some more Echinacea tea spiked with strong liquor, honey and lemon. The herb in the tea and the combination of all the ingredients steeped together, is just a simple recipe I have used for years and it works wonderful on colds, flu symptoms and similar illness. I will not argue with the Grandmother women about their folk medicine, they probably know more about healing than your college educated modern doctors any day of the week! Goddess knows a nice shot of good alcohol will open you up, by dilating the circulatory systems and flush out the germs and lower a fever. Echinacea works awesome when steeped in alcohol based fluid, it extracts the medicinal properties a lot faster than just boiling it in hot water. Honey and lemon is soothing for the throat and coughing, lemon and citrus juice contains needed vitamin C, and honey has microbial properties if it is pure unprocessed honey taken straight from a hive. Store bought honey is fine, but "raw" honey that is not strained much and has bits of honeycomb is the best stuff , it even tastes better, and you are supporting your local bee keeper that has his or her own hives by paying a bit more for a jar of the honey they took the time to harvest.   I'm sorry this is going to be a short post, but I will be back as soon as I feel a lot better. *Blessed Be*

December 1,2013 New Moon work.

On the New Moon that just passed us,  I repeated the Seal Up Your Problems Jar Spell, that I posted about before, as that spell was a success, it achieved the particular goal I had in mind, taking about two weeks to bring a result. So I figured let's try it again with a different scenario and see what happens.  I repeated the entire process and used a list of different scenarios and circumstances that I want to see removed and gotten rid of.  One part of it has already seen a manifestation just as I asked, at a record time of 4 days later, so let us see what else comes along! Seriously, if the rest of the inscriptions on the paper falls into place I shall be one happy witch!

Onto other matters, I am now the proud mother figure to a new black, male kitten named"Smokey" who was a stray and was about to go to the shelter. We all know what happens to black cats in the shelter and I couldn't have that. He is a hyper, rambunctious, loudly meowing ball of fluff. starting this week I will be working  on the usual  Financial Aide, and Love Enhancing work , I anoint and charge up my bags and set up candles. I got lucky yesterday and found a $20.00 bill laying in the street, it was just laying there right in middle of the sidewalk and if I had not left the store to go home right then I would not have found it at all.  Sometime today I will be seeing a Avon Recruiter, to start up my Avon cosmetics business again, I used to sell Avon back in 2012 and in 2010. I have been in a good mood since yesterday, plenty of good things have happened and I have seen the partial removal of some barriers and problems that have taken forever to budge. they are not entirely over yet, that wont happen for at least another month but moving in the right direction now  and things are changing as they should be.   This is going to be a short post, I have 20 things to work on at once and it seems I start something and get distracted and forget what I am doing and abandon it! The Solitary Shadow's work is never done!

Words of a Unseen Hand.

While everyone reads, be forewarned that this is not your usual blog post. It is a digital online Spell designed and written by myself and whomever was deciding to guide my hand at the time . I was insanely compelled to actually type it out on my blogger page, along with writing it on parchment paper.  Do not ask me why because I even do not know what has overcame me to do so. I am not a commanding or forceful person in any sense of the word unless I am somehow compelled or guided to be doing so. This is not something I have ever done or wanted to do and I am not a demanding or commanding person in this way on my own accord.  I do not understand the meaning of it, I am merely following a "directed" compulsion to do so. It has been nagging at me all day long to type this onto my page and I cant ignore the forceful compulsion anymore. Perhaps my brain has been overcome by some spiritual or metaphysical hijacking? I have no idea, but I suppose to follow the idea cannot hurt or harm..so below are the words that came to me and I have already written on parchment, and laid out in ceremony upon my altar table along with my tools.  The wording flowed into my head of its own and I wrote it down exactly as it came to me, it came out as if some invisible force was guiding my hand to write down the words and after I had it written down I wondered to myself whatever possessed me to even think to write such a thing. Everyone will soon see. Some of you are probably going to scoff at, or dismiss what you see written, that is up to you, and I will not be directly or indirectly responsible for whatever should happen to you as a result.  Somehow it was strongly suggested that others should be allowed to read them and follow along with it? I will let the readers decide for themselves.  Below you will see. what happens when a spirit or entity has ahold of your mind and hand, and typing fingers.  Quite honestly I do not like to think what should befall anyone who decided to not listen or heed the words seemingly written under direction of a higher intervention, but you can do what you want the choice is totally yours....

     

As I Do Will This To Be, So Will It Be Done, And Under My Will No Harm Come To None!
As Thou Read This Spell, Thou Shall Do As It Compel! Thou Are Instructed To Follow Exactly The Words Written By This Guided Hand, It Shall Be As The Goddess And God Wills And So Thus They Command! Thou Shall Seek Out And Go Unto The Black Wolf's Pagan Emporium, And Beyond The Veil Spiritual Shoppe, And All That Go There Shall Deposit Unto These Merchant Accounts,A Buyer's Sale And Sum! And Unto These Accounts, A Steady Flow Of Financial Increase Will Come! Serita Milena Tillson, Born January 18, 1983, Earthly Incarnated  Daughter Of Rita Faye Suggs, Known To Others As S.M. Tillson,  Ravenswolf, Black Wolf, And Under The Many Names Of The Wolf And Raven, As Are Known To The Goddess And God Whom Created Her, Shall Have Fruitfulness And Abundance From Her Every Financial Endeavor! Unto Her, Shall There Be Given Financial Wealth And Favor! All Will Come To See and Know Of Her, They Will Bring Unto Her Life The Gift Of  Fortune and Fame, And All Will Speak Highly of Her Name! All Will See, Know And Understand, That Wealth And Favor Shall Flow In Steady Amount To This One's Empowered Hand! As I Do Will This To Be, So Will It Be Done And Under My Will, No Harm Come To None!

Unblocking and Road Opening Work.

Hello All and Blessed Be! This New Moon's work for me shall be focused on Unblocking and Road Opening. It seems to be that some changes need to be made concerning certain situations and the people involved that are directly and indirectly a part of my life. I also need to make some changes to my own situations and it seems as if I am blocked and impeded no matter which way I turn and I am not receiving much help or support in some of my endeavors. Things seem to be stalled and sluggish and its like I'm spinning tires and going nowhere. I need to move, or find another full time job soon so I can move. The other situations around me seem to be very slowly moving and the longer it drags out the more volatile and problematic it becomes. So.. time to do some magickal dynamiting of these issues and see if I can clear the way for change! Sometimes in order for required changes to happen you have to take a lead and others will follow and other things will fall into place behind you.  For this working I will be asking and calling upon St Expedite, known to get things going in a hurry and helping with clearing obstacles. His offering is a slice of pound cake and a shot of strong 100 proof rum. His feast day is April 19th, but petitions can be made to him at any time, his motto is "why wait?  do it now!" Other popular Saints and Spirits invoked for Road Opening and Unblocking are Ogun,  Elegba, Maximon, and Pomba Gira Maria Padhila, and Saint Holy Death, however I will write a separate post concerning them as they are lengthy and more elaborate in their offerings and working with them can be a bit more challenging and exacting.   

I will be using a recipe I borrowed and mixed using different unblocking and road opening formulas. It is for a unblocking powder made from the ingredients found in "Arabka Soudagar" powder, and a handmade Road Opening powder.  Arabka Soudagar powder is used when nothing seems to go right and everything is just a tangled, blocked mess, it is used mostly for matters involving money and love. I already have a Road Opening spell bag so the powder and some condition oils will be used inside it. St Expedite will be asked to bless and charge it for me. 

For the Road Opening/Unblocking powder you will need:
1 teaspoon of Allspice
1 teaspoon of Anise Seed
1 teaspoon of Bay Laurel leaves
1 teaspoon of any sour citrus zest, (lime, lemon, grapefruit, etc)
1 teaspoon of Cinnamon
1 teaspoon of real Coconut Extract
1 teaspoon of finely ground Devil's Shoestring
1 teaspoon of finely ground Frankinsence resin
1 teaspoon of finely ground Licorice Root
1 teaspoon of finely ground Myrrh Resin
1 teaspoon of finely ground Peppermint leaves
1 teaspoon of finely ground dried Red Rose petals
1 teaspoon of finely ground Vertivert Root
1 teaspoon of crushed Tonka Beans

Grind , sift and bottle the powder in a airtight container. For more quantity of powder you may double or triple the recipe or as desired.  For the oil made from this you shall use  2- 6 ounces of Sweet Almond and Coconut oil base and 1/4- 1/2 teaspoon of each herb. heat all ingredients in a Bain Marie or a double boiler until it steams, do not allow it to boil! Wait until it cools and bottle herbs and the oil and allow it to steep up to a month to allow the scent to be obtained. It should have a sweet scent of floral, citrus, mint and spicy coconut. The oil and the powder can be used to powder, and anoint candles and use in charm bags and sachets. Do a skin test before applying to the skin as cinnamon can cause a rash or burn in sensitive skin types. Another great idea for this powder is to grind up a decent quantity of it and boil it in 8 ounces of spring water and infuse the water to use in Ritual Baths, soak up and wash away your issues and troubles!

The Road Opening Spell Bag I carry contains these items contained inside one black cloth bag nested inside a red flannel bag.

7 teaspoons of dirt collected from seven different crossroads, you will have to make the bag double layered or carry the dirt in a pouch inside the bag to keep it from dumping out.
1 small chunk of Himalayan Pink Salt
1 skeleton key
1 nail or small pebble found on or near a railroad track, I used both as I happened to find a railroad nail lying smack in middle of the tracks and I have never found another one just like it.
 Magnetic sand and two  Lodestones.

Optional items may be items related to what you want to see opened up for you, such as paths to money, you would add 3-7 real copper pennies, preferably "wheat pennies" or pennies made before 1983. Any type of other charms or roots and oils may be used with this bag to emphasize what you wish to see open up for you. This is a ongoing spell bag and I have seen some of these bags that are stuffed full of things in regards to love, money, success, protection, you name it. To charge and use you bag, Three days before the New Moon and on the actual night of the New Moon, You are to invoke your Spirit or God and Goddess of choice and cast your circle, and inscribe and dress a red and black candle or one each of red and black household candles or use a 7 day ritual candle, with your powders and oils and allow the bag to sit between the small candles or against the glass jar candle while the candles burn down. after it is finished, you are to anoint your bag and feed it with magnetic sand and a small pinch of powder once a week for maintenance, and especially on the New and Full Moon nights.  

Love, Passion, and Fidelity Charm Bag for 11/17/2013

Tonight I made the charm bag that I mentioned from the last post , I got my box of supplies today right on time. The goal and purpose of this working is to inspire love, fidelity, commitment, and passion from the person you want, or to draw it into your life from someone you have not met yet. Ideally it is better to already have someone in mind that you want to receive this type of commitment from. While I was doing the spell and after I created the bag I felt a very nice warm sensation settle into my lower stomach and it is still lingering. A great sign no doubt! It is now technically Saturday November 16, 2013 as it is  12:40AM here.   Later tonight I will burn another set of candles and repeat the spell paper that I wrote and tuck it back inside the bag. I also took the time to recharge the Jar and Bottle spells I have for the same purpose, they sit on my dresser along with the other stationary spell workings I have made where I can see them, and those stay inside my bedroom. The bag is meant to be the portable version of the same spell but with a few extra things added. This one has  27 individual ingredients. The roots and herbal ingredients listed below may be ground into a powder or steeped into apricot kernel oil to create either a spell powder or a infused oil if one wishes to do so. Sometimes changing out used herbs and roots gets a bit expensive, so it is nice to be able to use them and only have to use a pinch or a drop or two of the same ingredients and save a few dollars in the process. So here we go,the new bag I made for the Full Moon of November 17, 2013

 Inside a red flannel bag about the width and length of ones hand, add the following stones :
2 Red Lodestones (Draw the love and repel negatives)
2 Garnet Stones (Stone of Sexuality)
2 Red Tiger Eye (Love, Passion,Sex Drive)
2 Red Carnelian Stones (Sexual Energy and Reproduction)
2 Rhodonite Stones (Stone of the Heart)
2 Rose Quartz Stones (Love, Friendship)
2 Emerald Stones (Successful Love)
1 Phrenite Epidote Stone (Increases the power of everything it is in contact with)

Into a organza pouch in either red or pink, or wrapped and tied with red cord into a large cotton white or unbleached square, add the following roots, herbs, and other items, you do not want the loose herbs, roots and powders spilling out into a mess inside the bag or worse, possibly spilling out of the bag on accident :

8 Grains of Paradise (Love and Lust Drawing)
8 Cubeb Berries (Love and Lust Drawing)
8 Jobe's Tears (Wishes Come True)
2 small Cowrie Shells (Represents Female Sexuality)
1 Small High John Root (Success in your endeavors)
1 Small piece Jezebel Root (Irresistible Attraction)
2 pinches of Patchouli and Vertiver Root (Aphrodisiac)
2 Pinches of Damiana (Lust, Sexual Stimulant)
2 pinches of Vervain (Lust Enhancing)
2 pinches each of Calamus and Licorice Root (Commanding and Compelling)
1 Piece of Master Root, (Mastery over Self, Situations, People, Etc)
2 pinches of Spikenard Powder or Small piece of Root (Fidelity, keeps mate from Wandering and Straying)
2 pinches of Lemon Grass (Love Enhancing)
2 pinches of Cumin Seeds (Prevents mate from Wandering or Straying)
2 pinches of Periwinkle (Lust, Passion)
2 pinches of Hibiscus Flower (Love, Passion)
2 pinches of Dittany of Crete (Dreams of Love and Passion)
2 small pieces of Angelica Root (Strength for Women, Faithfulness in Marriage or Partnership)
2 strands of Devil's Shoestring  (Power and Protection)
2-8 drops of Love drawing, Come to Me, Passion, or any love drawing oils of your choice. the number of drops must be 2 or numerical sequences of 2.  2 is the number for couples, pairs and etc, and 8 is the number of infinity and destiny. Love drawing spells incorporate numerical values of 2 and 8.

Now that you bag is made, it will be placed between one red candle inscribed with your name and your partner or potential partner's names, birthdates, and other identifying information and petitions for passion, lust, desire, and sexual needs, and a pink candle on the other side inscribed with the same party's names and information and a petition for true love, partnership and unity. write out your spell paper with your names , birthdates, and identifying information, and your desires for love, fidelity, passion and sexual desires that you want to see manifest between yourself and the other person. Cast your circle, Invoke your God, Goddess, or Spirit you intend to ask for aide, and light your candles, repeat the wording on your petition, pass it over the lit candles three times and place it inside your bag. Let the bag sit between the candles until they burn completely out.  Your bag is now charged and blessed and ready to use. Anoint the bag every New and Full Moon with your oils and a pinch of magnetic sand to keep it conditioned and place it under the Full Moon light to give it a full charge every month.

The powder made from the botanicals and roots from the above recipe will have a strong lemony pepper scent and needs to be blended with approximately 1/4 cup of powdered sugar to sweeten the scent if desired. The oil is blended with apricot oil as a base, and blended with 8 drops each of Love Drawing , Magnet, Passion, Bewitching, Come To Me, Adam and Eve, Commanding, and Follow Me Boy, ritual oils. Add a chip of Rose Quartz, Garnet, and one small Lodestone to the bottle. The oil can be used as it is, or allowed to sit and steep for 4-6 weeks to obtain a stronger and more potent scent and mixture.

Creating a new Love Drawing Bag

So for this coming full Moon, on 11/17/2013, I am focusing my intention on creating a new love drawing bag. The old one finally is going to be retired, I've had it for three years straight and the fabric and beading is wearing out. New ingredients as well as tried and true staples are going to be added to this one. I ordered a whopping $44.00 worth of new supplies to add into it so I'm hoping it is going to be money well spent. I'm leaning towards the words "Passion" "Love" "Fidelity" and "Sensuality" to describe what I want this bag to embody and how I want it to work for me. Tomorrow I am going to the package store to buy some "Tequila Rose" brand alcohol, this is the alcohol I use for love libations, it is a delicious, sweet smelling, strawberry cream flavored tequila blend that just has this romantic, feminine, sensual vibe to it and even the bottle itself inspires ideas of love as it has a pretty pink rose printed on the bottle. Venus is in Capricorn for a whole four months and this is my time to shine in the love department! The Full Moon will be in the sign of Taurus, which points towards sensuality and pleasures of all types. I even made a new gemstone chip necklace of rose quartz and garnet, the stones of love and sexuality. Yes, I have love on the brain, something a bit unusual for my normally reserved and emotionally detached self. I feel the strong urge and pull to go in the direction of love this week, I need money just as much, mind you, but something is pushing me in the direction of love and all things connected to love inspiring themes so that's what will be happening for this weekend. Best to not ignore the subconscious prodding. Considering some of the things that happened on the last New Moon I think this just might be the right idea! What began just may come to fruition. I think I shall perhaps also reinforce the Love Drawing Spell Bottle that I made back in April and add some more ingredients to that too, Hmm..let's just put everything on the table come Friday through Sunday night and make it all one huge Love Drawing shebang of a ritual. but for now my readers..I have to go. I have lots of preparations to do and I shall keep you all posted and updated on this one I'm sure it's going to be a magickal success!

Better Business Spell Originally created sunday 3/18/2012

This is a original Spell of my own making, made almost two years ago, and lost when the blog from the old Myspace was deleted. I just recently got them all back and downloaded into a zip file. I am very happy I got these back because at the time I did not have these completely written down as I should have done   please note that the original writing of this spell is unedited and a original copy, so any misspellings or typo errors are most likely what was posted when I wrote it out to begin with and I have not gone through them to check for errors or words not spelled or written correctly.  I will be posting more archives soon as I have to go through them all and edit and recopy, name, and catalog them to a documents folder so that I know what ones I am looking for. These Spells will also be written into my next book that I am working on and again, I am very , very  happy I have these back!!  These are some of the first spells I created and worked on and if I am not mistaken I still actually have some of the original powder I actually made from this spell in my cupboard!  I shall have to find the original recipe to the "Money Drawing Powder" and post that too since it is listed as one of the ingredients. I have that one written down in a journal so all I have to do is actually find it and copy it. To All my Readers, Bright Blessings, and Happy Reading!  

 

Better business spell.

DateCreated 3/18/2012 8:32:00 PM

PostedDate 3/18/2012 5:32:00 PM

Body want to keep your job? influence your customers? have success at work and influence with your boss? perhaps this will work for you!! as with all of my powders, this can be converted to a oil using the powder base and olive, sunflower, or joboba oil. this is a large and complex ingredient list as i found every source of "better business" aspected herb and material to mix together that i could and this stuff should pack a wallop of power.  

solitary shadow's $$better business powder$$: mix one teaspoon each of the following.

ground allspice berries, basil, bay, bergamot, calendula, calamus root, 1 piece of devils shoestring, five finger grass, frankincense resin, gravel root, heliotrope (aka queen of meadow) root, high john root , nutmeg, jezebel root , powdered sugar, pure vanilla extract , rosemary, rose of jericho pieces, sea salt, vertiver root, wintergreen leaf, the "money drawing powder" mentioned in another of my blogs. may have to shred or break apart hard roots or materials before placing into grinder or mortar and pestle.

other materials used in the "better business" spells but not used in the powder.

adventurine beads, magnetic hematite beads, cowerie shells, eye of shive stone, (all whom meet your eyes will be drawn to you as a client) real chinese i ching coins. first dollar bill earned from first paycheck, gold lodestones, gold magnetic sand, whole high john root, jobe's tears, lucky hand root, malachite stone ten of diamonds card or corresponding 10 of cups tarot card, conjure oil, commanding oil, attract customers oil, job, steady work oils, any money drawing oils. especially the oil used from the original money drawing powder recipe.  this powder can be dusted on green candles, placed in amulet bags, dusted onto your work papers and business suplies, made into a oil and used to anoint your work tools and supplies,.  wearable amulet bag: three days before the new moon, take one small green cotton or leather bag, string it with fine linen cord, string upon the cord, the beads, cowerie shells, and iching coin. inside the bag place the first dollar bill you earned, two gold lodestones, magnetic sand, a high john root, a lucky hand root, 7 jobe's tears, 1 malachite point, malachite is known as "the merchant's stone" a ten of diamonds/cups card.  accompanying candles and paper spell. done three days before the full moon and again three days before the new moon.  take one green candle, carve it with your business desire, anoint it with the above oils, dust with the powders, on a piece of parchment, write explicitly your business desires, remember if it rhymes the paper is more powerful, include the exact address of where you work or your company's address, your boss's name, your supervisor, team leader, manager, etc names, addresses and phone numbers, and how you wish the influence of yourself over your customers and business associates to be manifested. (ie:) "as i will, so mote it be, many customers will come to me!" "as i will so may it be, (name) shall show favor unto me"

. now invoke your quarters, cast your circle, and invoke your dieties.. take the charm bag you just made and place it opened up onto your table or altar, prop it against the plate that your candle is sitting on. light the candle, while it is burning , read aloud the entire spell paper 7 times in succession. fold it outwards away from your body and bind it with green thread, place this paper inside your amulet bag, if you can manage folding the paper 7 times and 7 times again, this is beneficial, howver if not, then fold it tight and bind it with the thread. after the candle is burnt completely down, tie the bag shut and wear or keep this bag with you while at work and going outside of business for work purposes. a small doll can also be made with green cloth and stuffed with tiny bits of spell ingredients and placed inside the bag to embody "you" as a extension of your will and desire upon others. ***remember, all spells to begin a new venture are cast three days before the new moon, as the new moon is the time to begin any endeavor and the same spell is repeated on the three days before the full moon to increase and manifest full potential***

"boss fix powder" is your boss or supervisor a pain? is he/she a hard person to please? soften their attitude toward you and possible gain of their favor!  i found this recipe in one of my books.

cigarette tobacco from one cigarette, preferably if your boss smokes a certain brand name of smoke. using your own smokes does not work! or if possible, bum a smoke from your boss, he/she has handled the smoke, so therefore it would contain his/her essence.

 cut out the all of the "employment" labels in the classified section of newspaper that your boss is known to read, and the title of the newspaper from the front page. or use the newspaper from county you live in.  add chili powder, martha the dominator oil  , high john root or oil, on a square of parchment, write bosses name 9 times, cross it over with your own name 9 times.  grind these ingredients really fine, discretely put some where boss spends the most amount of time. if you have more than one boss or supervisor, seperate batches of powder is made for each person to be influenced. spinkle resulting powder around and in your boss's office or walk behind him/her and discretely sprinkle it onto them, **this part is highly not recommended, but if you can do this then try it** your boss is already not happy with you, why exaggerate it by throwing "dirt" on him/her?!

 

 

Time to order some Echinacea.

Well, its that time of year again I have to order some Echinacea Purpurea, AKA Purple Coneflower, Echinacea Augustfolia, and many other names. in order to stave off a attack of the sinuses that has rendered me a fogged over, stuffed up, worn out mess. I do not like this time of the year, every single time, the minute it drops a chill in the air I get a cold or my sinuses flare up and I am just miserable. All I want to do is pile up in my bed with a hot drink and my home brewed cold medicine and sleep. I make my own cold and flu remedy to take at bedtime, which consists of 2 tablespoons of  finely crushed Echinacea made from the roots, leaves and flowers of the whole plant, one cup of water, 1 ounce of 100 proof whiskey,  and lemon  juice and honey to taste, steeped in boiling water for at least 10 minutes and allowed to cool.  I said take at bedtime, because I cant function through the daytime hours a bit tipsy LOL! It will make you sleep, and sweat, and drive out whatever is ailing you a lot quicker than over the counter medications. The alcohol can be omitted if one chooses, as in for a child or if you don't consume alcohol.

Now..as to happenings concerning the New Moon Solar Eclipse...I saw some interesting and sudden changes develop in my life. one..my guest I wrote about has suddenly departed as quick as she came..as if I expected her to really stay.. I saw gaps and stretching of her intentions and the story I was told about her origins and how long she was staying and who she was associating with and etc..so her abrupt departure was not really a surprise.  And two, and in my mind, most importantly, my long time friend has finally came around and admitted a few things. of which I am silently dancing and singing to myself in joy. This happened on the exact night of the New Moon during the very early hours of the following morning. even if nothing has yet to actually happen, the admittance was more than enough to me, I have waited literally months for some kind of acknowledgement and expression of what I already knew was there and that in itself makes me very happy.

I will now be working on some financial assistance spell work for myself, finances are tight and what money I currently have is going straight to bills. I am not sure I should attempt to do spells with my energy and health levels a bit down but I have to do something and I think I have enough stamina and energy to at least summon a spark of good luck and maybe some favor from the spirits and Higher Powers of Wealth, and Financial Endeavors. I am going to have to go for now, but I shall return soon, to all my readers, Blessed Be!

Suspicious Developments for this New Moon.

Yesterday I got a call from a ex- coworker from my previous job. He is telling me there is this friend of his that has a small baby , that needs a emergency place to bunk until he can move her in with him in a couple of weeks. So starting later today, I shall be babysitting the baby while mom is at work during the day, I have a strong hunch that there is more to this story than I am being told about but I will find out more details later today.. something does not sit right with me about why exactly she is suddenly running away from a ex boyfriend and having to move on a spur of a minute decision. I know my coworker too well, he has this annoying habit for rescuing supposed damsels in distress and then finding himself in a not so appealing situation because of them, and he has this habit for having not so innocent intentions with these females at times. His manners and intentions towards females are occasionally not very gentlemanly or polite and to him any "opportunity" is fair game. I also have the suspicion that he is hoping someone will take on his little problem until he figures out how to fix it himself. I will be nice and allow her to stay with me, and I will gladly take on the small baby, its not the child's fault its mother is in a mess. I am being paid a fee to watch the baby and for allowing her room and board, and I shall be a accommodating hostess, however, I do not believe in freeloaders no matter their situation or circumstances, the woman is a adult so therefore it is not like she cannot be responsible for herself. Like I said.. there's more to this little story than I am being told and the situation is not all that it appears to be. I do very much hope for their sakes that the just released from jail, potentially dangerous, ex boyfriend does not find out where she is and what she is doing until she is at least gone from my house, I have no patience for crazy exes and bad relationship situations and if he by chance shows up at my home acting up and misbehaving himself, I can just as well have him escorted back to jail. My receptive antennae are going to be wired on high alert the whole time she is going to be here and I'm going to be watching for any sign or sense of a possible problem. Perhaps I may be being too sensitive and seeing more than is there but I feel like I am not wrong in my general perceptions of the developing situation.

  The New Moon is coming November 3rd, it is also a Total Solar Eclipse in the astrological sign of Scorpio. This is a great time to manifest new beginnings in one's life and plant seeds of changes that we want to see come to fruition for the next six months time, for them to mature and grow into desired results. I am going to begin campaigning the sales of my book again, and try to finish the other book that will be it's companion. The work on that has been slow, as I have been scrambling to get the funds to pay my outstanding household bills, so finding the time to write a page or ten has not been the top of my to- do list lately. I'm getting a bit bummed out over the fact that customers are visiting my sales pages for my Amazon sites and looking at the offerings, but there is still no sales. Christmas holiday shopping is coming so I am hoping for a rise in royalties and sales soon. I am going to do a petition for financial help for myself for this New Moon and use the proof copy of my book as a focal point and centerpiece for the working. I am literally down to $0.00 in my bank account and my credit account and this is the first ever time I have ever been completely broke.


  Onto the ongoing matter of the situation between myself, my neighbor, and my best friend..I discovered the reasons why he is being unjustly charged, and it verily pisses me off. I know for a absolute fact this is a hatched up plot of theirs to ruin his life for the worst and if he cannot get ahold of a decent and reasonably priced lawyer very soon it just may well ruin his life. That will be another matter I shall be sending a petition out for as it is going to be very hard for him to afford the sort of fees to get himself a reliable and trustworthy defense against his accusers' claims. I also heard some very nasty revelations about the situation that makes me look at my neighbor in a disgusted shame.  The person in the neighbor's house that originally started all of this has developed a odd and suddenly curious interest in trying to talk to me or have my attention of which I want no part of at all because quite honestly it gives me the strong vibe that I need to back away and go the opposite direction as fast as possible, and avoid all contact like its the worst of plagues, there is just a highly aware and creepy sensation that I am talking to a very dangerous person that is asking some strange questions and bringing up nosy subjects out of the thin air.  It is very possible I will be asked or called on to vouch for and help defend my best friend of which I have no problem with doing so. Things between me and him have become so strained and complicated that now we cannot really even see each other anywhere without someone possibly watching or paying attention. If he so much as steps a toe that is perceivably out of line for any reason he could be sent away until his court hearing. Needless to say, his nerves are basically shot to hell and he is going through extreme stress and strong mood swings.  So in order to protect him I have to stay away and act like  we have parted ways and we have no contact or association. I do not know how this is going to affect our friendship or what will end up happening later, how to have any type of relationship under so much difficulty? I am having a hard time having to accept things as they are in the current moment, we went from being very close and things were going very well, but since the last couple of months things have slowly but surely went down the drain to the point to where all we basically have now is verbal contact. Most people I know would have done  called everything quits and moved on and went on with their lives. However me and him are not everyone else. We have something special and enduring and strong that thus far not even the hardest of hits has managed to break it, and Goddess willing, it will stay that way. I am going to have to go. A new day has dawned and i am still sitting here, I have to get my son up for school, and  finish the chores to be done before my guest gets here. The posts may become short or not updated regularly for the next couple of weeks, as taking care of a 5 month old baby leaves very little time or energy to do much else. To all my readers, Blessed Be!

October 27, 2013

Samhain is coming. This year I am buying my son his Halloween candy and I think I am going to keep him inside with me and have a quiet celebration at home. I don't really feel like wandering the streets in 30 degree weather going door to door. I have a lot of important and crucial ideas on my mind that have been brewing harshly for weeks and I am about to see a final conclusion to it all come this Monday the 28th. The situation with the neighbors become a nasty all out war, resulting in my friend facing charges of utter complete BS that may possibly result in him being sent away for awhile. This makes me very upset on a lot of levels but I am trying hard to keep my temper in check and managing the best I know how. This has been coming for awhile and it has been steadily brewing into this boiling over pot of shit for months now. Yes, one of those charges he may actually be punished for because he actually committed the offense, the other is a load of technicality laced crap that someone has been trying to push into becoming a reality for months. I have seen and heard and dealt with more than enough of this mess and I am royally fed up. Quite honestly if he has to be sent off for a whole month or longer then I personally hope that the other person involved is sent away too and the other initial instigator to the entire mess vanishes like a bad wind.  Something must be done to permanently end the entire situation once and for all, for the betterment of all of our peace of mind and sanity. I am tired of watching my friend suffer and go through more than his share of tribulation and trials. The emotional and physical strain placed on all of us is at the snapping point. I will be miserable and depressed if by chance he is sent off but in a way perhaps this is a crucial part of the changes that need to take place since he is also a minor part of some of the problems, if only by being involved in the situation and unwittingly contributing a small portion of them. I am being forced to accept that some things are not within my control or ability to handle, however I am still going to ask that Higher Powers of the Laws of our world be fair and honest for all involved especially for his sake because if you look at the technical pieces of this puzzle the only thing he is really "guilty " of is trying to do what was right to begin with, trying to help people that needed help, and be a decent  person for someone that needs it very badly, and being dragged in a ever worsening situation that basically backfired in his face. The other party involved in this is really more at fault, for not enforcing or doing the right things as they have been instructed to do many times by other officials and people of higher power, and not taking the vital steps needed to actually correct certain behaviors and attitudes and not getting rid of the original people that were causing the problems to start with.  Later on Monday, or this week, we shall see what happens with that.

   I will not be surprised if by chance I am asked to step in and offer my testimony or opinion into this mess , thus far I have been mostly overlooked as being unimportant and just in between the two problems because I just happen to live smack beside my neighbor and I am friends with the other person being hauled to court. would I possibly incriminate myself in order to defend what I saw was right and fair for others? That depends on the charges laid against me and even then there is no reliable proof  I was or am involved aside from hearsay. I know plenty about the situation on both sides of it but there's also things I don't know because I chose to not be directly involved or be a part of anything I knew would get me cast blame or guilt on, and even then it would have still been pinned on the original guilty party for involving others into their dramas and trying to cause others misery and suffering and pointing fingers of blame or guilt on others in order to take the heat off of themselves. The cops, courts, and other legal officials know this so they have eliminated all others from the equation and are focusing on the people that are directly and actively involved.  If I do not have to be involved or brought into this mess then I see no reason to step in and make it my issue unless I see or hear something that is grossly wrong or unfair or if I am asked by a higher official to be giving my side of the story. for now my readers, I have to go, I need some sleep and to recharge before I gird my emotional fortitude to face what I know is coming...

October 14, 2013

There is something brewing that will come to either a catastrophic end or a miraculous change soon. My friendship with my friend that we are already barely holding onto has possibly finally come to a end? A huge and harsh barrier has been forcibly erected between us that should never be there at all. There are people in the immediate circle of his life that would see me out of the picture permanently and have come up with the most outrageous and cruel reasoning yet.. religious difference. Oh yes, the age old Christian vs. Pagan war/debate that has waged for millennia is apparently still alive and well in some places and communities. I forgot I live smack in the middle of a Christian Baptist community. I have absolutely nothing against anything or anyone that follows the Christian faith, they can believe and worship as they see fit if that pleases them. In fact, I know several people that were originally Pagan or Christian that have converted to one path or the other. I myself was raised a Baptist, and decided that religion and lifestyle was not for me and I could not completely follow or believe in their religion so I decided to no longer follow or practice it. However I see no reason why I should have to tolerate or agree with the idea that two people cannot have a bond or relationship of any kind just for the simple fact that one is a opposite religious background than the other. I have felt like for awhile that a lot of people have not wanted me in his life, or perhaps he himself no longer wants me in his life?? And no one has yet found a viable or plausible excuse or reason as to why not exactly until very recently. What brought this current issue into being? Ok..so awhile back, when I first published my book to Amazon, I had ordered a proof copy for myself to review before I actually had the printed version placed for sale. That copy I gave to my friend and he has had it all this time all the way up until last Thursday. Someone was reading a few pages and saw the words "magickal application" and a few brief references as to what the future books were going to be about. And this sparked a raging inferno of anti witchcraft arguments which resulted in him being forced into telling me that I was no longer welcome or wanted on their property or inside their residence or anywhere near them at all. Apparently it does not matter what kind of person I am inside or what good deeds I have done or what sort of  life I live, my religious views and practice will ultimately lead me to bad ends in due time and I will eventually go to "hell" or whatever place it is that we bad apples go to when we die from living a life of sin and wickedness. A lot of ugly and savage words were supposedly said towards and about me that I was not told about, because he felt it was wrong and he was not going to tell me what was said, in order to protect my feelings and my image because no one had any right or reason to ever say it to begin with. I was left stunned and confused and wondering just exactly what was going on because all he could manage to get out was something about he had no idea the feelings ran that deep and the convictions would be that severe. Never, not once, has he told me that he loved me less for who and what I was and was not and he was never going to judge me, or put me down, or hold this over my head, yet he is being forced to do it anyways because of others' views and intolerances?  I have not yet heard exactly what he is thinking and feeling about all of this yet, he has not actually explained it fully to me, and I have not seen or talked to him since that day, if I were to make a smart assumption, and considering how upset and shocked he was that day, I am going to say for now, until I know otherwise, that he is silently disagreeing with all of this and trying to figure a way to either turn it around, or a way to continue being part of my life that does not disrupt his inner circle and their lives and cause him issues and troubles.

Or..it could be that this is a huge blown out of proportion strongly embellished lie and fabricated load of shit that was devised to get me out of his life for good, and in a way so that no one has to feel guilty or ashamed over it. Are they all really so foolish to think that will make it less harmful or painful for them? I care not what religion you believe or what culture you are from. If you do or think, or feel, or believe bad things and have less than moral behavior towards others then it will come back around and bite you hard on your arse and you will eventually feel guilt, shame, and remorse over it and things will happen to you that will justify and correct your actions and words in a manner that will befit what was originally said or done. Would he be part of my life all this time and just now begin show this is what he truly feels and believes? I seriously hope for his sake that is not the truth.

Results from New Moon.

The actual New Moon is over, and now we are waiting out the final few days until the first sliver of light is seen to start a new cycle. As for me, it came to pass as I had said it would. The emotional upheavals and situations around me and with the people involved intensified over the weekend. Yesterday, my child and the neighbor's child were involved into a nasty brawl, of which both kids received bite marks, bruises and scratches and foul mouthed, angry tempers resulting in the child's mother calling the police to have it sorted out. She was trying really hard to make it look as if I and my child were entirely at fault and to blame. I was allowed to go inside my home and not take part in that outrageous scene as I was being unfairly accused of "never doing shit about anything towards my son", but it was her child that started the whole thing to begin with by bullying and picking on my child.  The police already saw and heard more than enough from her to understand this was a situation that was she was trying to blow way out of proportion.  Do not ever scream at someone else saying you want to see marks on the other person's child that are just like yours and that they never do anything about what their child does or says that is just way out of line. Furthermore, another neighbor witnessed the fight and broke it up and also spoke to the police and clarified the situation a bit more, this was why I was allowed to go back inside and I never even had to speak to the police anymore after that because they did not feel the need to see or talk to me since it was her that called them to start with and they explained to her that she needed to separate her kids from everyone else's and if anything else happened she could file a report and go to court over it. Which will not happen considering she has more than enough other issues to deal with that will land her in worse dire straits if she decides to push her desire to cause mayhem and problems for everyone else but not deal properly with her own in the ways that she already should have done. I never did say that my child was not at fault because yes he did retaliate in mostly self defense and yes he did leave marks on her child, but when you have someone biting hard enough to leave bruises, and hitting you with a stick and screaming at you and trying to hold your hair and beat your head on the ground, well,, I don't see him standing there and just taking that treatment with a smile and a cheerful sunny disposition, or walking away as if he felt or experienced nothing! yes, my child has a breaking point to his temper and yes he does get loud and occasionally physical with it. But he is not a saint and I would like to know whose child is? We adults would probably take on a similar response if someone else treated us that way   It does not matter if the children are opposite genders or whatever the reason is, bullying and fighting is the same regardless and there is going to be one or the other trying to defend oneself from their attacker and sometimes it gets a bit rough.

On the upside..after a long week of silence, my friend and I are back to speaking and tentatively trying to get along better, this was something I had hoped to see happen, as it was beginning to make me sad and depressed that we were having to put a distance between each other.  Ironically it was the upheavals and fighting amongst we people down here that got us back to talking because I ended up going over to the same neighbors house this past Saturday to retrieve a item that belonged to him and bring it back to him, and not being able to retrieve them was not going to be a option, I firmly and stubbornly asked them to find and give it back and took it to him regardless of how they felt about it, the item was being used as a leverage tool to keep him in contact with them and as a reason to try and lure him down here to get it himself which was not going to happen. So I was asked to go on a retrieval and recovery operation that was finally successful. They had no right to keep something that belonged to him as a binding chain to keep him in their lives when he has been trying very hard to disengage himself from them and their lives and go on with his own. This is another bone of contention and strife between me and my neighbors, he is no longer part of their lives and is not their friend or anything else., but I am still in his life, this causes jealousy, anger, strife, arguments, and general discord between me and them because they cannot stand the fact that I am still holding onto my position in his life and I have no intention of allowing them to sever that bond no matter what they want to throw at me or him. Why do people want to keep trying undermine and destroy something that is already struggling to stay intact? Its the whole, "If I cant have it then no one else will either " mindset. Certain people have been trying very hard to break apart what should be a wonderful friendship and a strong bond because they cannot get over themselves and accept that it is their own doing he is not part of their lives anymore. The obsessive, controlling, dominative, manipulating, lying, using, chain yanking behavior from the other people involved has got to the point where its potentially dangerous and it has to end permanently.

As I am now typing, today is Tuesday and it is 2:41 am. yesterday afternoon, I got more upheaval and conflict brought to my door yet again by the neighbor's oldest daughter, earlier that day I had gone through a drawer of my clothes, of which some were given to me by them as they did not fit them anymore and I am the smaller size, so, well I decided since I was not wearing the given away clothes and I did not need them I was just going to bag them up and haul them away. As most people would do with unwanted belongings.. Later that night, I hear a banging on my door and I find a fuming and angry tween child on my door caustically demanding I give back her clothes and she wanted them right now and I was going to find them immediately and give them to her this minute! She had the nerve to plant her foot against my door while I was telling her to leave and stare me down and shout at me over this of which I told her where "her" things were and if she wanted them to go get them and leave me alone and get off my door. I all but had to push her away from my door and literally shut it in her face while she was still shouting at me because she had no intention of leaving.  Why and how she believed she had any right or business even going through my trash bin to see what was in there I don't know because she would have never known the clothes were in there had she not been prowling in it to start with, or someone went and told her what I had done, because she was not outside when I took the bag out and wheeled the bin to the sidewalk. Coming to tell me off about what was in my trash and was no longer actually her property and demanding I give it back?? Yup.. just a excuse to come and start more drama and problems and chaos. Getting in my face and invading my space and shouting at me  and trying to force yourself into my doorstep isn't going to get anyone anything but a slammed door in their face and told to leave and ignored like they don't exist until they get over their little hissy fit and learn how to act better.  alas, things will become worse before they get better. Time will reveal all in due time. I am just going to sit back and allow The Goddess to do her work and see what unfolds in its own accord.

Seal Up Your Problems Jar Spell

I came up with a new spell jar recently,  the night before last, I was thinking about my problems and the things I have been dealing with and experiencing, and the idea popped into my head to try and seal it up  and contain it indefinitely and hopefully get rid of it.  With any luck, I will see a change soon.. this is the first time I have worked this particular spell and it is my own creation so let's see what happens!! 
I will be burying my jar in the ground where it cannot be found or destroyed, but at the moment I have it tucked away in a drawer where it isn't being noticed or discovered until I can go out with it.

Tools and supplies:
1 standard sized black candle.
1, 8oz round, wide mouthed, flat bottomed, glass jar with a sealable lid.
1 black piece of art paper, the kind used to make those black and neon colored pictures.
This paper is to be written with your desire , objective, and spell, don't worry, your chosen ink will show up if you hold it to the light the right way so you can see the lettering while you write. Do not use neon or bright colored ink! Black Red, and Purple, provides a sheen enough so it can be seen on the black paper.

Other ingredients:
1 clump of Spanish Moss to bind and wrap around the paper.
1 pinch of Graveyard Dirt
1 Coffin Nail
1 pinch of Sulfur Powder
1 pinch of Black Salt
1 pinch each of Licorice Root and Calamus  Root
1 pinch of Banishing, Black Destroyer, Lost and Away , or similar type of powder formulated to get rid of your problem or issue, it depends on the  situation, or whatever and possibly whomever it is that you want to get rid of or see be gone from you life.
9 drops each of Commanding Oil, Black Destroyer Oil, Voodoo Oil,
Feel free to use any type of strong banishing or Destroying types of anointing oils that also resonate with your intention.
And finally, a scant teaspoon of Mars Water, also called,War Water, this is iron nails steeped in spring water until it becomes a bright rusty orange color and is used as a protective, banishing, and sometimes malevolent hexing water. In this case we are using it as a protective and banishing agent.   

Take your jar, sit it inside a metal heat proof container, like a metal pie pan or your cauldron if its wide enough,  After you have written out your paper with your intention, wrap the Spanish Moss around it to bind the negativity and trap the situation to be gotten rid of, place the paper and moss inside the jar. cover the paper and moss with the above powders and ingredients, or those of your choice, and anoint with the above oils or those that correspond with your intention. Stick the Coffin Nail through the moss and point the end towards the bottom of the jar. it does not matter if you stab it through the paper, just have it sticking somewhat firmly into the moss and pointing downwards. Pour the teaspoon of Mars Water lastly. Take your black candle and stick it firmly to the top of the jar's lid and place the lid tightly onto the jar. Invoke your chosen God, Goddess, or Spirit, and cast your circle, call Quarters, whatever your Banishing ritual may be.. and ask that your spell jar be activated and what is contained within be sealed away from you and your life and it is to be Banished, Destroyed, Reversed, or Ended however way you ask. anoint, powder and light the black candle and visualize, that as it burns, it is sealing away your problems, negativity and worries. The heat from the burned down candle will seal the jar and after it is snuffed out and your ritual is completed to your satisfaction, the entire jar and its contents must be put in a dark place and not disturbed, or, if you can manage it, buried in the ground at the cemetery, or crossroads, or dropped into a deep pool of naturally occurring water if by chance you have one nearby. So long as the glass is not broken or unsealed, the spell should remain intact. I hesitate to say drop it into the natural water or bury it in the ground, as the lid will rust and decay over time, but I do not suppose that after that amount of time has passed, your problems will surely have been long gone and no longer a worry?

I will post a update to this when or if I see a result that tells me it has worked or not. Until then, Happy Reading and Blessed Be!  

The Angry New Moon

This New Moon phase I am seeing anger, violent emotional upheavals, relationship complications, and lots and lots of them, from all sides of me, it reminds me of a tsunami wave threatening to  pull me under and drown me in it. Friends, acquaintances, and neighbors are warring, lies, rumors, he said, she said, and a whole host of other vile poisons are being stirred in a huge pot of toxic brew. At present moment my best friend has pulled away and withdrawn and stopped speaking to everyone including myself, entirely, and it looks like that's going to be happening for awhile. While I am not the exact cause or the reason behind this person's feelings and actions, I am still being striped with the same paint brush and treated the same as the people causing the problems even though I have not done or said anything specifically to be of a part of it, I am somehow still seen as involved in it whether or not I have contributed to the chaos, and whether or not I really want to be involved does not seem to matter either. The fact I am on the right side of this current warzone is not really being considered or thought about at the moment?? I am still being cut off and excluded from a particular person's social circle. Whether it is to protect me from being hurt, or for some other reason, I have not discovered that yet.  It hurts my feelings and I would be very mad if I did not already know about the situation causing the problems. I suppose I'll just have to ride out this wave of changes and hope I am still floating and relatively undamaged when it all crashes into the jagged cliffs of transformation and becomes something else, whether the transformation will be good or bad or what will really happen, I still don't know, that makes me feel insecure and I do not like the fact that I do not know where this is going yet, but I am sure to find out sooner or later.  I have been watching the scenarios around me play out for awhile, from a reasonable distance and trying to not be directly involved, and I have always known that when push came to shove, I would get shoved whether I deserved any of it or not. 
    
There is the possibility I might lose my friend, after two years of knowing this person, while I don't believe it will happen this way, it will hurt very much and this is the very last thing that I want to see happen. Still, I am mentally and emotionally preparing myself for in case it happens. Walls of defense and protection are being drawn up and secured as much as I can manage. There have been moments where I considered severing the bond myself, because things have become so complicated and stressful, people all around us keep meddling, gossiping and rumor mongering about why we are friends and what exactly the purpose of our bond is for, which causes friction and upsets and unhappiness, which is what everyone seems to want to see happen? If they are not happy, we can't be happy. There is also rumors, lies, and gossip and intrigues, social discord, and malcontent being spread like shark chum from other sides as well and this does nothing but add to the current issues I am seeing all around me.

     I have no doubt I will see the waters of this tsunami grow very large and hit the walls of  the transformational cliffs extremely hard over the next few days. the New Moon is October 4th and the effects will be felt for several days afterwards. The New Moon brings transformations, to get rid of old habits, bindings and barriers, situations, and people, and make room for new ones or to strengthen what already exists that needs reinforcement, breaking down the old boundaries, barriers and blockages and creating room for growth, and renewal. Sometimes this means that friendships and relationships die and fall apart , or are replaced with something or someone new and worthwhile,  if it is mean to happen, a existing bond will deepen or shift from something it already is, into something it is supposed to be and those changes are often hard or difficult to process and understand and go through for everyone involved. What will be, will be, as the Goddess and God wish it to be, so it shall be, and we mere mortals can really do nothing but ride the waves and weather what is sometimes a violent and turbulent storm.  

Money Jinx Removal Spell

This coming two weeks I will be working on a spell to remove and banish monetary problems from my life, and just maybe bring in some better financial results. see, as of today, I am now convinced there is something wrong in my life as far as the financial situation goes.me recharging and re-consecrating my green spell bag apparently has not taken effect yet or did not work out as I had hoped?  Today I went to pick up my last check from my old job, only to be told I could not have it until 4pm, and they are only releasing them on Fridays. I wasted money on a cab for nothing and I came home bummed out. I sent my friend out with a permission slip saying he could pick up my check for me, as he is supposed to be going to the same place to reapply for his job back. Let it be my current bad luck that he was not able to get to go like we both hoped. I'm not holding my hopes to high at the moment. He is also the same man whom is my best friend/romantic interest. the situation I wrote about in the last blog about  his legal matters, was a success, as he was given a reprieve from his financial obligations and allowed two more weeks to work something out. we are still having ups and downs about when we get to see each other, how often, and keeping communication  flowing, God and Goddess forbid a grown man should have a female friend and have any sort of a social life whilst living at home! If everyone else would keep their opinions and noses out of our personal business we might actually do better than what we have been. Perhaps I should consider a working to remove barriers and restrictions  on that situation too, or just a overall banishing and reversing spell aimed at getting rid of everything and everyone that is blocking mine and his way from achieving a better financial and romantic status? the way things have and have not been going in either of our lives for awhile, I'm seriously considering it, to see if a little destruction of barriers, restraints, and problems wont do the trick.

     One of my favorite spirits and Saint figures to work with as far as these things is concerned is Santisima Muerte.  Otherwise known as Saint Holy Death. No one and nothing messes with her and her power over Death, and Transformation of all things is absolute and final. She also will bring back wayward spouses and lovers to stay ("until Death do us part".) and protect and guard you, your home, your family, friends, and your financial and monetary dealings if that is required.  I seem to have particular success with working with her although I am not exactly of the same spiritual practices that she originates from. Apparently to Her that does not matter, if she likes and favors you for whatever reason, then she will work with you if you ask ever so nicely and make the proper offerings and petitions.  Below is a picture of my altar with a Santisima Muerte banishing spell set up. In the far back right corner is a 7 day candle of Holy Death, in the center on the plate, is a handmade black and red candle that was inscribed with a spell to remove and destroy negative influences and aspects from my life, around the candle is a standard offering of white rice and rose petals, all around the plate was a cauldron of Graveyard dirt, incense of jasmine and rose to the Saint, a shot glass of Holy water mixed with Tequila, and a candle holder representing her image.
   

     At the time I actually did this particular spell, there was some very negatively charged issues concerning family matters happening in my life at that moment, and I wanted rid of it. I will never know this for a fact, of whether what I did with this spell had any direct effect on the events that transpired the pre dawn hours of the next day, or perhaps Her Holiness decided on her own that this was going to be the only solution to my problems?? Let us say that the situation and the person that the situation was centered around was permanently removed from my life in the most final of ways. Ask Death to remove a person or situation, or to transform the situation into something less troublesome, and she most certainly will, and sometimes she will cause the effects to be deathly permanent whether or not that might be what you specifically asked for or desired, or maybe sometimes what She decides to do is really the only best course of action, and to Her it will be done as she sees will be in the best interest of all concerned, and to complete the tasks  asked of Her. I have seen many times that I have a bad habit that sometimes I  get exactly what I ask for, although not always in the same manner or fashion that I  originally requested. Gives credit to the old saying, "Be careful what you wish for.."

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Friday September 13, 2013

I could not think of a actual name of this post so I just typed the date instead. Tonight, right at this moment, I am working a financial assistance spell. I have decided tonight was a good night to recharge my green spell bag that was almost destroyed in the washing machine. I added some new money drawing powder, the now cleansed and blessed herbs, roots, stones, and other items I had in there, and a crucial and possibly potent ingredient of my own that I will keep to myself as it is very personal. I believe this was a approved gesture, since while I was invoking the Spirits I got a strong sensation inside and a pull of awareness. I have a smaller green bag I wear around my neck, and that got a charge too and I am wearing it at the moment and inhaling the fragrance of the anointing oil. my room smells like the "Money Blessing" incense I bought from the tobacco shop where the Indian lady works, it smells awesome and when I get a chance im stockpiling that stuff cause it seems to have a nice effect on my money drawing rituals. I would love to know exactly what was used to make the sticks with cause I have yet to find anything else that smells like that!  Even though I am sitting here typing, I can feel energy and spiritual presence in my room, as I feel like I am being enveloped in it.

  Below is a picture of the bag that I made and its the one that got washed. It is hand sewn, the cloth was hand dyed, beaded, and embroidered in green threads with runes and a dollar sign symbol. I know I did not sew the runes into it as well as I could have but considering I did it by hand I think I did a decent job. I tried actually selling some of these bags, as sachet bags for various uses, however that idea did not pan out. People around here are not so much into "Black Magic" and "Devil worship" and considering I live basically smack dab beside  and around several Christian churches I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. It is so much so, in fact, that I recently had a neighbors toddler son come stomping up to me one recent Sunday and ask me specifically in a angry and demanding tone "Why don't you believe in God?!" Seriously how to answer this to a four  year old child that still doesn't understand much except what his mother apparently does not try to teach him? The mother stood by and said not a word to her son for his  behavior, whom was scowling at me intensely and demanding a answer. I replied that not everyone has the same religion as he does and that he should respect his elders a lot more and I went about my business and did not speak to his mother. I doubt anything I said would have made much difference anyway. I am a oddity in my little community..as I am the only known follower of a non Christian faith and my apartment is given a wide berth by most everyone that knows I do not attend the local churches, as if seeing a pentagram finger-drawn on the windows and doors was not enough of a obvious clue! At least it keeps away people that would possibly vandalize or cause mishaps to myself or my home. I wear my symbol with pride and I do not hide who and what I am and I don't care much about what the neighbors think or feel about having a "Satanic worshipping" witch living among them. Karma will hand them their dues eventually and I'm going to be the one cackling with glee when She does!  That is possibly a silent bone of contention and a barrier between myself and my love interest, as he is a Missionary Baptist. He swears to me that he does not love me less or judge me for the fact that we are opposite religions and what I choose to believe is my business. we do not discuss our religious beliefs or differences of opinion, it is not something he wants to get into so I leave it alone and don't push it.
  
   As I sit here and type, the incense has burned down, the candle I lit is still burning very brightly, and I can smell the anointing oil and money drawing powders I put inside the jar, its a standard 7 day jarred candle. I am still enveloped in the awareness of  spiritual energies in the room, and the green amulet bag I have on is releasing its scent and charge onto my skin.  I feel that I have succeeded in my request and that Higher Powers are listening to me tonight. I am hoping by the Full Moon I will see a definite sign of this. Tuesday, there is a important meeting my love interest has to attend that will decide his fate for a month. I have requested that meeting goes well as he owes some money or possibly things will not go well for him, and I do not like the idea of what may happen if it does not.  you will all be seeing a distraught and heartbroken blog post if this request of mine does not go as I have asked. I know I am technically not supposed to do any magick with my computer running or anything electrical running in the room, however, my computer is in my magickal space area and it gets included in the circle I cast, as there is really no avoiding it. It does not seem to really affect the outcomes of my spell work, and my computer is part of my money making tools so therefore for a financial aide spell I don't see the harm in including the table it is sitting on into my circle.  I do turn it off occasionally when I am doing some serious Darker themed spells as I don't want anything negative or harmful possibly inhabiting my computer that should not be there. I don't see how it could be that demons or bad spirits or malevolent energies can manifest through a computer exactly, that seems to be a blown out of proportion idea made up by Hollywood. But it is a electrical current device which such entities could draw energy from in order to manifest their presences, so best to be safe than sorry.  I think I have rambled maniacally enough. It is time to close my circle and put away my tools, and place my newly charged bag in a safe spot so it will never be washed again!

                                         I bid you all Blessed Be and Happy Friday the 13th!    

 

Magic Spells Ecommerce Store.

Today I was wading through the dozens of promotional products on my ClickBank Marketplace and I found this one I like and I would like to share it with everyone, I looked at it and decided it is a promotion worthy product and  worth the time its going to take me to share the link -->Check This Out! Magic Spells and Services!  It would please me greatly if my audience would be so kind as to  take a peek and see what is there to enhance and stimulate the magickal senses, I'm sure there shall be something that will pique interest and engage you all!

  So ..a update on my apparently financially jinxed status from the last post.. yet again I was forced to take another day off from work, woe betide me tomorrow when I go in and hand in my flimsy excuse.. My childcare provider was unable to watch my son while I went to work..no sitter means no work, however I'm sure I'm not going to be able to keep handing in excuses and being pardoned from work like this, I was under a employee review as of week before last and I am sure that whole week of work I missed , plus today, has royally shot that review sheet full of holes!  I am now seriously considering voluntarily resigning from my job and seeking other types of employment. It is now three days until the New Moon and I am thinking that I just might need a financial aide spell for a new job.

  What exactly is compelling me to actually go against my own hardworking, nose to the grindstone nature? It is so not like me to abruptly decide I need a drastic change in priorities towards a career or project.   I got a itching thought in my mind that I need to work on the books I have been trying to write, and to start on my Natural Health Consultation courses again, as I recently got a exam module through the mail and I still have not gotten to start on it. Somehow the exams and working on my books have suddenly appealed to me in a satisfying and resonating way and I feel as if I "need" to be doing something with that. So I'm going to go out on a really skinny limb and see if it will hold me up and I can actually finally get somewhere with the ideas brewing in my head.    My home life is also seen  to be suffering from my lack of attention, my child barely sees me and what time he does see me, I am tired, aggravated and emotionally worn out, cleaning the house and  cooking dinner is done on a "when I feel like it" whim.. this kind of imbalanced disruption in my personal and private life is something I  am starting to feel stressed and depressed over.
  One more thing before I go and call it a night,.. found this cute little app for Android and downloadable to your computer for Galaxy Runes Pro, featuring your own personal rune casting at the touch of a screen! you can even "test drive" it on your computer to see what it does and how it works before you buy it! I have it on my computer its so neat to play with and learn from! here's the link --> Galaxy Runes Pro   To all my readers, Blessed Be and have a great night!